Nobody sees what I go threw everyday, I don't even know myself honestly, I feel like I'm numb to everything around me, I have these walls that nobody can tear down to get to the real me, I put on a face for everyone, at church I'm this little girl trying to do the best I can in a very messed up world, at school I'm the one who talks too much and get myself into trouble, at home I'm silent and miserable, and with my friends I'm a misunderstood cry baby, nobody knows me, not even half of me, if I showed them the real me nobody would like me, like they don't already! It feels like I have nobody and the only thing I can do is write it down, it started with my dad, I guess we will say my dad but he's not at all a dad I've never seen him since I was 2 months old and I honestly never want to because he abused my mom verbally, emotionally, and physically, I hate him for what he did to her and oh did I say what he did to my brother, yep it's even worse, I will leave what he did up to you to guess, but it didn't matter I didn't have a dad, I still had my uncle Tim, but then he disappeared out of my life too, my family had no idea what happened or why all the sudden he wasn't coming over and he wasn't answering our phone calls, after a few years we gave up in a way. Then one day, 21 days after I had turned 16 we got a call from a hospital in the town he had been living, my friend Gina was at our house, I felt so bad, they told us that he had drank himself to death,
