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Please.

Okay so I have had something on my chest, and I need to get this off.
This goes to all my followers
And some haters

Yesterday I got in a situation where someone thought I was romanticizing rape.

And I kindly asked them to fuck off.
I am a nice person
Ask any one of my followers
I am not going to be mean unless provoked
It's so hard for me to be mean, that instead of telling someone that I don't wanna do a role play, I feel so bad so I either don't answer or make my replies very short and not very detailed.
I get it
But I'm so sorry if it sounds like I'm making excuses.

But I don't joke when I say I'm suicidal. Ask someone that is in my bio.
Those are my closest friends.
My hands were shaking yesterday
Uncontrollably.
I'm NOT playing the sympathy card.
By far.
If you had met be before quarantine I would have never said I was suicidal
But a lot has changed
It took 2 friends to get the situation under control, and the last one to full on tell them to fuck off.

If I ask you to stop please do
I'm not the type of person to mess with
I'm not threatening
I'm telling you words hurt me
Badly
My heart races, adrenaline rushing in my veins yesterday.

Please don't just follow me to tell me hurtful things...
It's happened too much
Too many times
I have TRIED SO HARD
OVER AND OVER
TO TRUST

I...don't deserve this
I thank you for 600 followers
For all of you who have been there for me
But please
Stop hurting me
I get it
It is a misunderstanding if you think I make excuses for late responses.
Sometimes YES I do ignore you.
Because I'm tired guys
I have other things to do
I have a life
Online school
I draw
Sometimes....I just wanna sing my feelings
Please understand
This is aimed at certain people, but for future people too
Don't be my friend just to turn around and hurt me

It hits hard
I may seem rude, or pompous sometimes.
But I'm soft too
I have feelings

-Kitten