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⚠️Promise⚠️

⚠️⚠️TW : this chapter contains suicide attempt and degrading/sad thoughts, please skip the chapter if you're not comfortable with this. ⚠️⚠️

•seokjin•

After all we have gone trough.

All those times we made love.

He told me he loved me.

But he ended dumping me.

He lied to me.

He teared my heart into pieces.

All those time he told me I was perfect.

He told me I was beautiful.

It was just a joke.

A game.

He never actually loved me.

Who would love someone like me?

I can't.

The pain is unbearable.

He sugar coated our love but it was just an illusion.

He lift me up.

Away from my insecurities,

Far away from doubts.

But now that I fell in that deep hole again.

I don't know if I'll be able to bear it.

[f l a s h b a c k]

- Jin, we have to talk... Namjoon said quietly.

- What is it honey?

- Listen Jin, I don't know how to tell you that without hurting your feelings but I... I-I think I was wrong... What I thought was love actually wasn't. I think it was just a form of deep brotherly and friendly love, respect and I noticed it lately... You're beautiful but I noticed my heart won't speed up for you, those butterfly in my stomach...I... I-I'm in love with Yoongi, I'm sorry I didn't have enough experience to know my true feelings toward you. I don't want you to think I was using you hyung, I'd never do that. I don't want to lie to you nor do I want to hurt you but I wanted you to know it because I can't hide things from you. I'm deeply sorry hyung.. I-

I didn't even let him finish.

My world has crashed down.

My heart is smashed into million of pieces.

It hurts.

A lot.

He used me...

I was a test.

A waste of time.

Before I could let the tears slip, I ran out of the house.

I can't look at his face again.

As I reached the outside, alone in the cold dark night,

I screamed my pain.

But no-one heard it.

[e n d o f t h e f l a s h b a c k]

I ran.

Ran till I was out of breath.

And I finally reached my destination.

The last thing I'll have the luck to see would be the shining stars.