Have Faith In Me (Sequal to IHBNY and Trust) (Kellic)

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Kellin's POV:

"Justin," I whispered and pushed Vic away from me. He gave me a confused look before he followed my gaze and saw Justin standing there. Justin tore his devastated eyes away from us and ran back up the stairs.

"Shit," I muttered as the realization of what I just did hit me. I cheated on him. I've been cheated on before and so I know how it feels and I went so long hating cheaters, yet here I am, turning into what I hate. I know the sick feeling Justin probably has in his stomach right now and I feel bad for causing it. I quickly grabbed my shirt off the table and slipped it back on before hopping off the table and running towards the stairs. I didn't even so much as look at Vic as I left. I can't deal with him as well as Justin right now.

I got to the top of the stairs and went into the apartment. I didn't see Justin in the main room so I went to our room, opened the door and saw him there, his back to me. I shut the door behind me and he turned around. Tears were falling down his cheeks already. I really didn't know how to act in this sort of situation. It was usually me that was doing the crying and someone else comforting me, not the other way around.

"I'm sorry," I said, not knowing what else to say. Was I even sorry?

"No, no you're not," he shook his head, sounding angry and bitter." He's what you've always wanted, right? You aren't sorry it happened. You wanted it to. "

Did I? I was trying not to think about it. I was trying to not let the kiss affect me at all. I didn't want to let myself feel anything from it because if I do, then I'll start feeling like the old me, the old me always gets hurt.

"I'm sorry that you saw," I said, now that one was the truth.

"You're sorry you got caught, "he spat out.

"I didn't plan for that to happen. It just did, okay?" I said. The naive part of me was thinking that Justin would just forget about this like he forgets about every other time I mess up. I was so used to him putting up with me that I guess I thought he would again, I was wrong.

"No, it's not okay!" he shouted at me. He's never shouted before. "Don't you have any remorse for what you just did?!"

"Keep your voice down," I said.

"Why? Afraid the others will hear and find out what a fuck up you are? Newsflash Kellin! They all already know you're a fuck up!" he yelled. I just nodded, looking down at the ground and knowing it was true. Shut it off. That's what I kept telling myself, to shut off the emotions. After not getting any reaction out of me, he spoke again.

"You know what? I'm done, "he said and my eyes shot up to him again.

"What?" I asked, suddenly a little bit of the wall that I put up got chipped away and I felt a sense of fear.

"The whole you-and-me thing. I'm done. I can't do it anymore," he said.

"Are you breaking up with me?" I asked as my heart sank. Getting broken up with is a horrible feeling.

"Yeah, I am," he said defiantly. I shook my head in denial.

"No, you can't do that, "I said.

"I can't because I'm fucking done! " he practically screamed at me, "Do you know how much life you've sucked out of me?! All I do is give and give. I've helped you through so much shit! He was the one that ruined you, broke your heart, left you shattered and I picked up the pieces! I dealt with your drinking and drugs. I dealt with you fucking hitting me at least once a week! I had to deal with being in love with one of the most horrible people on the face of this planet! And how do you repay me? By going back to him! I knew the second he showed up again that I was going to lose you, but I just thought you had the decency to break it off with me first! "