One lonely midnight || short story ||

Midnight is here

This day has NEVER been easy

Like i would like to be sick and dizzy

But do you living is easy?

I am here in the room, waiting for someone. As i close the lights i went across to the mirror. Of course what will you see? Yourself.. I don't even wanna look at that. "How..pathetic" I thought.

I went to fix the scattered pillows on the floor. You don't want to sleep with no pillows right? But you would ask, why would my pillows be scattered around instead staying in bed. Well you see i was crying a while ago morning and i felt good just throwing the pillows.. cause i felt like i was throwing myself. Now back to cleaning, after i fixed the pillows i went to look at my phone. Shock seeing the 11:59 to 12:00am. My cousin went in and i quickly went to bed. Let me tell you she was the person i was waiting for. I covered my face with the blanket so i could do my moment. So it goes,

Water..more like tears coming out to my eyes. I feel like i would make an ocean and in that ocean i can drown and struggle and let people watch me. Of course i should know that NOBODY would care. Spend my time inside the blanket. Tear out the horrible day, now time for me to close my eyes and sleep. Before that i whispered what i would compliment myself  "wreck"

Next morning 

I went up quickly to see my cousin awake again it must be hard for her to sleep I thought. She was doing something on her phone. I ran quickly to the bathroom and washed my face and brushed my teeth. Went downstairs to eat 2 pieces of bread. Hungry, went upstairs and start writing its a thing that i do. Tomorrow we're gonna celebrate a birthday. Our dead grandfathers birthday. You can still do that right? Ugh whatever. I wrote my plans for tomorrow and put my notebook back. I started reading a book, i loved this book because i could relate to it the title of the book is "Don't wanna do this thing called life" cool right? I got curious so i bought the book. Until when i read it all I could say was "Same".