A Diary of Me

Part 1

~Date: 5/8/20~

Entry:

This is something I'm confused about. I just want to vent.

I own Roblox. I play it almost everyday ((I'm EmberStar29 if you want to follow/friend me- I dont friend much, but just say you came from Wattpad <3)), and one of my favorite games on there is called Tower of Hell.

Its basically its name. A randomly generated ((out of 169 or something mini-obbies)) tower-shaped obstacle course with around 5-6 parts, and it's absolute torture. I have never completed it.

There is one power-up you can buy called 'Bunny Hop', for 10 Robux. It essentially forced everyone to always jump until the timer runs out.

So because its a hard as heck game, people rage and be jerks on there a lot. Like today.

I bought the gamepass, and people went ham on me, like I was a Satan-spawn.

They started yelling at me in the chat, saying they hate me, I'm going to hell, etc. etc.

And it was cool, it was fine. I told them I didn't care and kept playing the game. Until they started getting awful. They kept telling me to die. I'm ugly. I'm fat. My parents hate me. I'm a mistake to humanity. ((They don't, and I absolutely despise people who use that as an insult, especially because I have very low self-esteem.)) If it was an insult that could get by the chat filter, you bet they constantly spammed it to me.

My friend joined the game ((I'll call her Melon, because that's my nickname for her. No, its not a cruel nickname, it's just close to her actual one.)) and was really upset at what they were saying to me. Even after the round was over and someone else bought Bunny Hop that round ((they were awesome and I wish i remembered their user)) the bullies kept yelling at me to die. I tried to explain to them that I didn't buy it, they kept spewing these insults at me. And if Melon was't on an Xbox and couldn't chat, she wouldn't let them hear the end of it.

Needless to say, the a-holes left and didn't come back.

I was still upset ((I get emotional over some of the stupidest things and i hate it)) about the ignorant jerks, and I told my friends on my group chat about it. It will be bad grammar, and emoticons and stuff, but bear with me. We have Melon, Sailor, and A in it, and it went a bit like this:

Me: Some rude people are bullying me on Roblox, so I'm having a lovely time : )

Sailor: >;(   Give me their addresses and 5 minutes to find a weapon 

A: lol cool

Me: I just bought a gamepass in Tower of Hell to make people jump. They keep spamming and pm'ing for me to die because I'm fat and ugly

Sailor: wh-

Me: And, cool? A, wh- bullying isn't cool.

A: cool

Me: No, bullying isn't cool-

A: why not

Me: I-

It hurt my feelings. Bullying people and telling them to *die* over a gamepass isn't fun

A: then don't pay attention

Me: I just-

Melon: People shouldn't be telling you to die. At all. And It's not cool

~end~

Like I said, I'm an over-exaggerator, but this hurt my feelings. I called up Melon to talk to her, and we both agreed that A was not being cool. I've been in situations like these multiple times, where people just don't seem to care, or even agree with the person harassing me. And frankly, I'm getting tired of it.

I just wish that I have friends who are always supporting.

Don't get me wrong, though. I do have some who would kill ((ok maybe not my christian friends- maybe just give alot?)) for me, and I love them in return. Yet sometimes, my closets friends act like they don't give two s**ts about me. ((ok i could swear but for some reason i'm scared about my parents finding out so you get asterisks in the meantime.))  I treat my friends with care, yet they don't always treat back.

Okay I think I'm still making a big deal about everything like I always do, so I'll just stop here and now.

See you guys later,

~ Ember