Rehab (Rafeal Casal)

1: Meeting

I sit was look at the same four walls that I have been looking at for the past two years. UGH I wanna shoot up right now. I'm almost clean just six more months in this hell hole. There was a knock at the door, probably Doris.

"Yeah," a small woman came through the door, she looked to be 27 or 26.

"Hi I'm Stacy James your new nurse for the remainder of your stay here"

"Mm new nurse. I see some things haven't changed one bit still think I'll hurt some old woman just because of the one time I snapped"

"I'm here-"

"For my morning check up,"  she looked startled. "Look sweetheart I've been for almost two years some of these things just get old to me," I laid back to she could take my blood to make sure there weren't any traces of coc in my blood. "So tell me about yourself cutie"

"Mr. Casal-"

"Rafael. Please call me Rafael"

"Well Rafael  I don't think you should call your nurse cute and second I'm 26, I'm Puerto Rican, and I'm the middle child. What about you Rafael," she put the needle in my  arm.

"I'm 28, mixed mom's white and dad's Mexican. Imagine me tryna check the right box for a job. But anyways I have a dog, her name's Mia, she's the cutest dog ever. I love to write and rap. I make music with best friend Daveed. UM I'm a soon to be ex drug addict," we both laughed,  she's got a cute laugh. 

"Well I'm done drawing blood," she put a band aid on where she got the blood from. 

"Thank you Stacy"

"You're welcome and there's someone here to see you. You can leave now," I got out of my bed and walked into the visitors room. I saw Diggs sitting at a table on his phone. 

"Hey Diggs buddy," I sat down.

"Hey Rafa how you been since last time"

"I've been good. They gave me a new nurse again," I leaned back in my chair. Daveed comes every Monday, Wednesday and Friday.

"Wow well hey you got six more months"

"Yeah six more months"

"Well I'm still writing our movie just need your input but you stuck here ," he laughed. 

"Yeah," I laughed a little. I honestly didn't like it when he joked about being here. He doesn't know what it's like in here. 

"Awe come on man I'm just fucking withcha"

"You know how I feel when you do that"

"It's a joke Rafa are you serious"

"UM yes it's hell being in here. But of course six more months"

"Why are you mad"

"I'm not"

"Yes you are you're fighting like you always do when you're mad," he motioned to my hands that were messing with my sleeves. 

"Look I don't want to fight with you"

"Who said we were gonna fight," he scoffed.

"No one but I know how you get Diggs"

"Wha- what do you mean Rafael"

"Nothing it's dumb anyway"

"No tell me" 

"Okay fine ever since I got here you've done nothing but shove it in my face of how much of a fuck up I've become"

"What that's not true"

"Yes it is. You keep telling me how good you and Jaelen are and I know that's not the truth. Y- you tell me life's great outside these walls. Do you not know how that shit makes me feel Daveed? Huh do you ? You know what since you say how much you can trust her ask her who put me in here August 8th,  2012. A-and then ask her where she was before that because I'll tell you bro she wasn't where she said she was," I got up and left to walk outside. 

"Yes he's doing gre- Hey," she cause i grabbed her arm to go outside. They don't trust me outside either. 

"I need to walk," she straightened her skirt and nodded.

"Why"

"I'm mad it's what I do"

"What happened"

"You know you're really nosey"

"Sorry I just want to know my patients"

"Wow"

"What"

"Nothing.  So anything else you wanna tell me about you"

"I have a two year old son. His name is Alejandro, his dad doesn't want to see him. He left as I was giving birth to him actually," a tear fell down her face.

"Oh um I'm sorry"

"No it's fine really. I'm over it but he keeps asking for his dad and it hurts because I can't tell him that he's not here"

"What does he look like"

"Who my son"

"Yes," she pulled her phone out and showed me a picture o f him. He's got her skin and her hair, the only thing different is his eyes and nose.

"He's a cute kid looks like his mother"

"Oh please stop"

"No I'm serious he's a cute kid, looks just like you"

"Thank you. Well I'm gonna do a lap or two just to clear my mind. We can talk if you want but I prefer it to be quiet"

"Okay"

We ended up doing three laps around the yard ad we walked back to my room. 

"Well Rafael my shift is up and it lights out for you. I don't need to give you this speech since you've heard it multiple times, good night" she grabbed her things.

"Good night Stacey"

She left and I stayed up till who knows when. I ended up falling asleep around 3 am I think.