Fix me [On-Going]

Prologue

"Babe! I'm getting married!" Maligayang bungad sakin ng bestfriend ko, si Blair.

"Really?! When??" Pinilit ko na mag tunog masaya. I'm happy for her but I still felt a sting in my heart. This is wrong, I should forget him.

"Next year pa naman. We still have lots to prepare. Bride's maid ka ha?" I gave her a half smile.

I wish I could be the bride.

I should be the bride..

"Dapat lang 'no! Hindi ako a-attend pag hindi." Pananakot ko sakanya. She just laughed and nodded.

"Anyway, tomorrow we will have a small celebration. We will announce it to the family, punta ka okay?"

"Yeah, sure. I won't miss that event." I'm with you through everything, I will support whatever you love. 

I will give everything you want, even him.

We went out of the cafe after that little announcement. I don't know what to feel. Dapat masaya ako diba?

Masaya ako. I will convince myself and it will happen.

Nag shopping lang kami ng mga damit. Small celebration daw pero pinabili niya pa ako ng white dress.

"Yung totoo? Ako ba ang ikakasal?" Sana nga. Natigilan ako sa tanong ko, tunog biro naman diba? Kinabahan ako bigla.

"Huh?" Mukhang natigilan din siya. Shocks! I sounded serious ata?!

"Bakit kasi kailangan pa white dress?" Reklamo ko. Sayang kasi for sure isang suotan ko lang ito. 

"Baliw, everyone will wear white. Gusto ko lang, maganda tignan, eh." She just shrugged while giving me an answer.

"Ang arte ha." Irap ko sakaniya pero tinawanan lang niya ako.

"Tita! Good evening po!" Mommy ni Blair agad ang nakita ko kaya sakaniya ako dumiretso. Puro nga lang family ang nandito. Buti nalang at malapit na din ako sakanila.

"Oh ija, dumiretso ka na sa garden. The announcement is about to start. May idea ka ba?" Ngiting bungad saakin ni tita Judith.

"Wala po eh, biglaan nga lang po ako sinabihan niyang si Blair." Pagsisinungaling ko. Ayaw ko naman sila malungkot dahil sa'kin unang pinaalam ni Blair ang engagement nila.

"Nako, as if naman wala akong feeling tungkol doon. I think they're getting married!" Excited na hinawakan ni tita ang dalawa kong kamay at pinipigilan ang tili. Natawa nalang ako kasi para siyang kinikilig na teenager.

Pag labas ko sa garden, I saw many white christmas lights na nakasabit sa mga halaman. Meron din tatlong circle table na may white table cloth. In front is a small table for two and ganun din ang balot. It looks like a wedding reception.

 Hindi halata announcement mo Blair, ha?

"Good evening everyone! We have an announcement to make and it definitely needs a celebration. Come on, Honey." Naglakad na sila Blair papunta sa gitna kung nasaan yung small table. 

"Blair and I.." He looked at Blair with full smile on his lips and with a twinkling eyes. Parang kailan lang hinihiling ko pa na sana tignan niya ako ng ganiyan. 

"..are getting married." Everyone cheered for them. May isang nag make ng sound from a spoon and glass kaya gumaya na din ang lahat, syempre ako din. I know what's next after this.

Kahit gusto ko na pumikit, kahit gusto ko na iiwas ang tingin ko, I still chose to look at them without blinking. Like how I chose to let him go and be with her, without hesitation.

They gave each other a kiss. Punong puno iyon ng pagmamahal. At sa pagkakataon na iyon, buong puso ko nang tinanggap na tapos na. Hindi na ako magsisisi, hindi na ako malulungkot, kasi desisyon ko iyon.. at doon sila masaya.

A tear fell from my eye as I was watching my bestfriend and my first love kissing one another and preparing for the next chapter of their life. 

"Congratulations Blair and Sage!"

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