Time for a change

CHAPTER3:Covid19/ECQ/i want to Change

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CHAPTER 3: Covid19/ECQ/i want to Change
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Dahil sa Covid19, maraming naka kulong sa bahay.(malamang). Lamon lang ng lamon. Dami ngang tumaba ngayon eh. HAHAHA.

So yun na nga. Dahil wala na akong load, lumabas ako ng bahay at dali daling pumunta sa pinakamalapit na sari² store. Baka mahuli ako ng pulis eh. Katakot sist.

Ewan ko kay mama. Afford namn naming bumili ng wifi eh. Ayaw lang niya kasi baka wala na daw akong ibang gawin kundi Cellphone lang nang Cellphone. LIke duhh. May wifi man o wala,grabe pa din ako gumamit ng Cellphone no.

While papunta sa pinakamalapit na sari-sari store. My ex neighbor(Mang jose)saw me and said.

"uyy. Si Tacia pala to. Ang laki mo na ah. Akala ko sexy na." he jokingly said.

Like. PuTangNa?!. Sabunutan ko kaya tong matandang to,,, kaso pano ko sasabunutan to eh wala namng buhok. Kalbo kasi siya sist.
Pero syempre, dapat kalma lang no.
My respeto ako sa matatanda.

I just smiled bitterly at Mang Jose.
To be honest, gusto kong umiyak sa sinabi niya.
Call me OA pero masakit eh.
'It hurts when someone jokes about your biggest insecurities.'

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When I went home. I immediately go to my room.
I wanted to fcking cry so bad. I wanted to cry...

I can feel my tears flowing.

I laid on the bed.
Stared at the ceiling and thinking about what Mang jose said earlier.

Should i change my physical appearance?

Yes. Yes i should.

I wanted to change my physical appearance, dahil nasaktan ako sa sinabi nang matandang yon.
And other reasons is that, I wanted to try if how does it feel if you're a fit person and also I wanted to try trendy clothes that I can't wear because of my damn size.
  
To be continued...