am I just a boy toy || mattia polibio

to damn selfish

"boy your such a lost cause
now your name is crossed off
how you gonna fix this ?
you can't even fix yourself..."

"bro I swear I couldn't pick another girl if I wanted to" he slurred out as he kept on kissing me "sir we have a match to go to , time to get up" I say as we disconnect our lips from eachothers "tia can I borrow hoodie ?" "yes babe , also you don't need to ask" that was one of my favourite things about him ... I was always allowed to steal his hoodies .
I chose one of his favourite
"mamas cmon you know that's my favourite one.." " I know that's why I'm wearing it , it's comfy and it smells the most like you" "and that's why I'm allowing you too wear it" I laugh and we both leave his room
also whenever he calls me babe , baby girl , mamas , baby I always had butterflies in my stomach ... but the thing is I've liked him since we were sophomores ,that's when we started hooking up all the time, and now we're seniors ... I doubt he has feelings for me... , he's the boy that I'm an actual simp for and still are , sooner or later we arrive to school for his end of term school soccer match it was PVHS vs Clemenside {a/n : random ass name from the back of my head :)}
I could see Mattia was getting nervous by the time we entered the school field gates , Clemeside are apparently the hardest to beat ... but I for sure know that PVHS will win
"mattia"
"mhm" he responds blatantly
"Mattia , calm down you'll be fine win or loose"
I kiss him on the cheek and then head to the bleachers and see one of my very close friends Amanda
"heyy"
"oh hey tay"
as she's says giving me a hug
"how you been doing ?"
"good what bout you ?"
"yeah I'm alright"
I say as I cheer Mattia on
"WOOHOO YES MATTIA"
"mattia is so freakin hot bro"
As she says that I shoot her 'hop off , he's mine' look
"are you two together ?"
what do I say ? yes... no ? friends ? friends with benefits ?... literally the whole school would ask us what we are and we would never have the answer to that...
"honestly I don't know , I guess ... friends with benefits or sumthin like that ?"
"I know you really like him or even love him ever since you started hooking up or even before , listen you don't even know if he's even using you .. look natalie ur literally one of my closet friends and I'm only tryna look out for you..."
shit . ok but how on earth does she know ? anyway love ? uhmmm maybe , to be honest I don't know either ... but I know at this point I don't atleast hate him .. right ?
"whatever"
I say before heading to Mattia for half time
"hey mamas
"hey cute boy"
he blushed
"aww I made you blush"
"did not"
he chuckles
"well your cheeks don't say that"
"anyways wanna come over to mine after the game ?"
I stood there for a long time and thought should I ? or should I not ? damn amanda really got to my head ...
"natalie ? tay ? mamas ? hello ?.."
he says while waving his hand informs of my face
"oh sorry , no Mattia I'm sorry"
"why not you always come to mine after my games"
he winks
"well I'm sorry I just feel like it today.."
"alright . whatever"
he says stubbornly then walks back to the pitch , rude but ok ? uhm I guess he's a bit mad at me ?...
I go back to sit to the bleachers and see one of mattias friends ?
"hey"
"just stay away from Mattia and I mean it"
and then he just walks off , OKAY NOW THAT WAS WEIRD .... stay away from Mattia ? what does that mean ? I have to much to think about right now ... THE BOYS ONE WOOHOOO , so I posted on the insta

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I'm leaving the school gates and head home , then I enter just to hear a smash
"WHERE WERE YOU"
my dad screams in my face
"at school.."
"YOU KNOW DAMN WELL WHAT TIME YOU SHOULD BE HOME NATALIE!"
"well I'm sorry ... da-"
he comes close up to my face and slaps me ... well I know that , that will leave a mark ....
"sorry won't break it but I'm sure that will...go to your room!"
he's been acting like this ever since my mom had left to run away with another man ... I kinda got used to him abusing me {a/n : not tryna make it sound really bad in anyway possible:/}
I apply some makeup to my face to cover it up then , I had the urge to text Mattia and tell him what happened ... he never really knew about the relationship between me and my dad all he knew that my mom had left ... I mean I guess I wasn't really the time to tell him anything ... so I texted him and I told him if could come over .


IMESSAGE CONVERSATION
tia 💋

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        tay 🥰 : hey    
                                Mattia do u think I could    
                                                    come over ?
                                            seen

seen ? but he doesn't leave me left on seen ?... so I took it as a yes and went out and walked to his house which was literally 5 minutes away

>his house
*knock knock*
"Natalie ! hello please come in"
mattias mom says as I walk in
"how have you been ?"
"I've been doing good ! what about you ?"
"yeah ... uhm could've been better"
I mumble
"ah natalie nice to see you here"
as mattias dad comes from the corner room , I'm pretty sure mattias parents wanted me and him to date but never said it aloud...
"thank mr polibio"
"Mattia is in his room as always"
mattias mom winks then I chuckle then head downstairs to his basement , I knock once ... nothing ? I knock again . nothing again ... I swing the door open and i see ... Mattia kissing another girl , my heart shattered after seeing that, I mean why did it ? it's not like we're together... right ? a couple seconds later standing there mattia finally realises that I was in his room
"Nat , what are you doing here ?"
"well I texted you that I was coming over but looks like you don't want me here"
I turn around and began to go upstairs but I feel a strong hand attach to wrist
"Nat I'm sorry I don't know what I was thinking..."
"well it clearly doesn't look like that"
"listen I'm sorry okay ? I was just horny and you said you didn't want to come after my game , so.."
"well I'm now aren't I ? you know what mattia i might as well go , have fun with your chick"
Mattia laughs
"what's so funny ?!"
"your jealous"
"me ? jealous ? ha very funny"
"you are , there's no denying it"
maybe I was ? just a little bit ? oh who am I kidding IM JEALOUS BRO !
"you caught me"
I say as I up my hands up in defence
"but your cute when you mad"
"but you weren't supposed to that to me"
I say in a low tone letting Mattia know I'm upset
"listen princess I already said I'm sorry ... actually get up and get ready we'll go out"
"wait where"
ughh I love this kid too much to hate him but like only a quarter of me believes that I shouldn't be with him right now .. but the rest of me believes that I should , so I am
"it's a surprise"
he winks with his brown / hazel beautiful eyes ... IM SUCH A SIMP