A/N: Play the song for a better experience :)
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I like him, just like any girl at school I do drool at that dumbass. I'm pretty used to a plot wherein I'm not the protagonist who's going to end up with the one I like.
Sa buhay, hindi lahat ng gusto ay nakukuha. Kahit ano pang pilit natin- ang nakatadhana ay mangyayari and we can't do anything about it.
Swerte siya dahil hindi ako nagpaka antagonist sa kwento nila, in fact I'm the one who likes him more than she do. Siya recent lang habang ako- for like an eternity?
I'm that type that stays quiet- admitting defeat may be bitter but that's the only way. Hindi mo pwedeng pilitin talaga kasi ikaw lang din masasaktan, besides even if I do confess my feelings to him he'll just think I'm a fool for liking him- ididispatsa niya din ako kase hindi naman ako yung bida- hindi ako yung tipo niya.
Masakit? Yes, in fact baka ikamatay ko pa.
While staring at them from afar, I realized that I did waste that eternity trying to chase someone I truly liked- loved?
With a cigarette in my fingers, I sighed and continued to stare at them. Nakakangiti siya sa kaniya, that kind of smile- it's a kind of smile you involuntarily do when you're in love.
Nakakainggit- pero nakakatamad magpaka kontra bida.
For once, I want to be the protagonist of a story- maranasan na yung mahal ko e mahal din ako. Cloud nine yun pare.
Lumingon sila ng mamataan ako, she smiled widely at me and gestured for me to come near her. Tinapon ko ang hawak kong sigarilyo at pumunta na sa kaniya, with him smiling at her.
"Anong ginagawa mo don?" Nagtataka niyang tanong.
"Smoking." Simpleng sagot ko na ikinairap niya, she hates it. Nakakasama daw sa baga, napaka caring niya. I guess that's one of the reasons he fell in love with her.
Bullshit.
Nagkibit balikat ako, she sighed and hugged me.
"Alam ko may problema kapag nagssmoke ka, please tell me pag ready ka na ha?" I nodded, I can't tell her. I can't be mad at her.
I can't be mad at my best friend who took him away from me.
I can't.
Well sino bang niloko ko, hindi naman kami and it's not her fault. Hindi nito alam ang feelings ko, even him. He doesn't know. Good.
I can't take it.
I'm only a fool for you
And maybe you're too good for me
I can't.
It's better to act like I don't care than have an emotional breakdown in front of them.
I act like I don't fucking care at all.
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