Watching You

Prologue

When I saw him I knew I had to have him.
I've never understood why people consider stalking 'wrong'. It isn't inherently bad. Sure some might find it creepy or a bit off-putting but if no one is being harmed then what's the big deal. And of all things I'm doing, I'd never harm him. Ever.

Jonah is different. He's unlike anyone I've ever met, well not met, but seen. I'm yet to talk with him for fear he might not like me. How could anyone as perfect as him ever like someone as pathetic as me? But I'm getting closer now. I can feel our paths slowly intertwining and our worlds becoming one. We draw nearer every day, it won't be long before he finally knows -better yet acknowledges- who I am.

I wrote him a note the other day....

Dear Jonah,

You don't know me. I know that's a bad way to start a note but I thought I should make it clear from the get-go that you don't know me. But I really wish you did. I wish for you to know me more than anything, in the way that I know you. In the way that I love you. I love you more than anything. And sure, it may seem weird for a total stranger to love you but you are no stranger to me, you are my everything. I know so much about you and I only want to know more, I wish to know every thought inside your head as soon as you think of it, every emotion you feel, every beat of your heart, I want it all. That might be too much to ask for but maybe it will happen. Maybe you can feel the same way I do about you.

Sincerely
-

I didn't send it.
How could I send it? He'd think I'm utterly insane and I just couldn't bear the thought of that happening. Of course not. But one day. One day I will send him the note and he will read it. I will watch him read it, watch the emotion that plays across his face as he takes in my feelings for him, watch his reaction, his thought process, what his next step will be. Maybe he will feel afraid, people often react in fear of such deep and profound feelings. But oh my dear Jonah I hope you don't fear me. You should never fear me for I would never hurt you, I only ever want to love you as deeply as I possibly can. I don't care what cost I will die for you. That is how deep my love goes.