Band Member

One

NOT EDITED

//JANNA//

Now joining collage was never a thing for me, but neither was joining a band while every pap and magazine company had there eyes on them, but hey, anything could happen at this rate.

One minute I'm asked to join the band, the other I'm halfway around earth to this new place I've never been to just to sing in front of fans who probably hate my guts.

"Ashton I'm like shaking of how worried I am" I cried, throwing myself on the couch.

"I remember my first concert--" I cut him off almost immediately because he couldn't be serious right now.

"It was in front of ten people ashton stop." He sighed plopping down next to me and wrapping his arms around me.

"Don't worry, you're amazing at singing and you'll be fine"

"I don't want to go, I mean if feel like I should just go in for one song, then the next concert two songs, then three song and so on, ya feel?" He nodded resting his chin on my head.

"Okay"

"Really?" I beamed

"Yeah why not, I mean it is a way to built up your confidence so yeah, why not?" I wrapped my arms around him in a tight hug, almost killing myself because damn boobs hurt.

"So what song?" He asked

"How about heartbreak girl? I really like heartbreak girl" i smiled, getting off the couch to grab gummy bears.

"Sure, why not, it's the.." He stopped, raising his fingers to count on them which made me laugh because a twenty year old man needed help counting.

"Tenth song, so be ready" he went to hug me but I dodged running away to get ready.

Slipping on my black skinny jeans and Luke's 'you complete me(ss)' muscle tee, I walked away forgetting my boots for minutes but then ran back to wear them.

I was so pumped so go out there to sing and try Luke's leg kick that he had tried to teach me several times.

"Five minutes till show time" michael shouted, followed by loud screams from me, Calum, luke and Ashton.

Then the one direction boys came out to give each one of the boys a pat on the back and a "break a leg" to which then harry though of a good joke (it isn't) and looked towards luke, a serious gaze in his eyes, "not you, please don't break a leg doing that kick thing in those jeans" no one laughed.

He frowned looking around to see if anybody had laughed or even smiled, which then his eyes landed on me, a huge grin plastered on my face.

"See! See, there we go, janna thinks my jokes are funny, I knew it!" He cheered

"Actually I'm laughing cause no one even spared you a fake smile or laugh" that's where they all burst out laughing while harry frowned, but then smiled cause damn was he a teddy bear.

"Holy shit were five minutes late what the fuck? Was it not five minutes early like three seconds ago?!" Ashton screamed, running around looking for his drum sticks.

The stage was about a six minute walk, leaving the very un-athletic boys breathless before they even began.

As time quickly passed by it was now my turn, and to say I was freaking out was an understatement, I was shit freaked.

"Fuck" I screamed, feeling the nervous jitters come to life, I was known to everyone around me, I was the over thinker, the planner for six months ahead, and the stressing one.

"And know, joining us is out new band member janna murad!" Calum screamed

I remained frozen not daring to move and inch while the boys looked at me from behind the stage.

"I'm sorry give us a minute, boys were gonna have to drag her out" as the boys approached me, a let out a high pitched scream, forgetting my microphone was open.

I ran towards harry using him as a shield like a kid with a couch while playing tag.

"Janna get you're ass here" Michael ran from one side, Calum in the other, Ashton behind me and Luke in front.

"It's four against one are you fucking kidding me?!" I jumped over the couch, barely making it over as Luke caught me and threw me over his shoulder.

I pounded my hand on his back making him groan.

"Janna stop!" He groaned

"Never! Let me down" I whined, as the stage door came closer I screamed louder, almost as loud as the crowds, of course the crowd wasn't screaming, there were shitting there pants laughing.

"Luke, Luke! Stop!" I shouted

"Too late" ashton opened the doors for luke, and now the screaming started.

He set my down on the spot where my mic was, and I froze.

"H-hi" I stuttered into the mic.

The light were on my face, but even threw that I could see that the first row of girls hated me, sending me glares, and nasty looks.

"I- I'm janna and yeah" I laughed uneasily.

"This is heartbreak girl" an overly exited ashton screamed.

"1,2,3,4"

I might have disappointed a lot of people in my life, but not these boys, not 5sos, not my brother/crushes because honestly.

So when it was my turn to sing, I sucked all the bad energy in and I sang.

It's was all good till a water bottle from the front row came Flying towards me, hitting right in the stomach.

The girl who hated me in the stadium were cheering along, while the ones who were (I think) okay with me, were quiet.

Tears formed in my eyes, but I quickly brushed them away.

"I guess that's how harry feels yeah?" and to top this off with a cherry on top, I was already on my period with cramps, my emotional state was anything but stable.

Luke ran to my side checking if I was okay, I brushed him off with a yes, but boy was I far from it.

"Whoever threw that please raise your hand" michael calmly spoke, which meant michael was beyond pissed.

A girl way better looking then me raised her hand, smirking towards her friends.

"Okay that was rude as fuck, do you know how much courage it takes to be on here, your first time performing live, in front on thousand of people? it's fucking terrifying so we would appreciate it if you weren't such a dick about it, thanks"

She was far, but damn was her aim and strength good.

"Yeah, I'm just gonna.." I motioned my hands towards the backstage door, and walked off, the boys following behind me.

"Guys, go, finish it." they brushed me off and kept walking with me.

Just as we sat down we heard what might have been the worst, guiltiest thing ever, for me at least.

"Sorry to inform you, that due to the minor injury, 5 seconds of summer will not be continuing the set list"

"Oh fuck, they hate me"

------

TOOK ME SO LONG TO UPDATE WTF

IM SORRY

I PROMISE ILL UPDATE MORE OFTEN

XOXO

-gossip girl (jk it's janna 🍣)