When I was a real girl
I ate
I cared
I felt
Now there is nothing.
Nothing but emptiness
Nothing but pain
Nothing but a void
Waiting to be closed
But closed with what
Blood?
Cuts?
Scars?
Sorrow?
Pain?
For now I won't know
I will sleep it off
I will look forward to tomorrow
I will cry silently
I will fake a smile
I will say I'm fine
Just so you don't worry
Just so you won't ask
Just so I won't break down in front of you
I'm holding on for now
I'm holding onto thin air
This will not consume me
This will not rule me
This will not own me
I choose to shiver
I choose to break
I choose to feel the numbness
I might survive
I might overcome
I might get over it
But it will be back
Worse than before
