- My first OFFICIAL BOOK. :) hope you guys like. *:
"Push, Sarah! PUSH!" Those words came back to my memory, as I walked passed the little girl picking chips on aisle 5 at the market. I felt guilty. I never should of done what I did. I want my baby girl back. That day, April 16, 2009, when I went through so much pain, and I didn't even touch MY daughter, because my mom wouldn't let me. She wanted me to give her up for adoption so bad, and if I carried my little daughter, I would fall in love at the second. "SARAH! Hurry up! We don't have much time, the party is about to start." That was my annoying mother, the one that crushed my dreams, and made me loose my daughter to some strangers, the witch. I snapped out of my thought, and helped the little girl with the 'Doritos' bag, on the higher shelf. Her beautiful caramel eyes looked at me, and thanked me. I got the 3 big bags of chips for the party, and headed over to the cash register. My mom was paying, while I packed the groceries in the bag, and onto the shopping carts. After everything was paid, I took the groceries over to the car, and shut the door. I can't wait to get back home, and go to bed. I was feeling horrible. "I saw you looking at the little girl, you're too young, you know I made the right decision for you, because you wouldn't be able to care for the baby, work, and go to school." My mom failed at all her attempts of making me forget the painful day, she gave away my daughter. "YOU COULD'VE HELPED, I STILL WANT THAT CHILD, I DON'T CARE IF I'M 17! You gave away my daughter, mom! Against my will." I whispered that part, because my eyes got watery. After the long, painful silence, we finally got home. I stormed out of the car, and slammed the door. I went into my room, and laid on my bed, crying. I was skipping the stupid party.
While I was sleeping, I dreamed. A beautiful dream. In the dream, I was 14; the age I had my daughter, so, again. I was 14 and I gave birth to my tiny little daughter. In my dream, I kept my daughter, we had soo much fun. My mom wasn't even in the picture. Before I woke up to the loud music, my daughter had just turned 3, and I took her ice skating, but the little girl in my dream, looked just like the girl I saw in the market earlier. The phone started ringing and interupted my silence. I went downstairs, and picked up the phone, this is how the conversation went:
ME: Hello?
LADY: Karen?
*Karen is my mom, so I went along with it, maybe it wasn't even that important.
ME: Yes, why?
LADY: It's Carolina? The family you gave this dumb girl to? Sarah's daughter.
ME: Uh... Yes, Carolina, what happened with my dau--, i'm sorry, I meant what happened with Kassidy?
CAROLINA: She's annoying me, and you told me that if she bothers, dump her anywhere? That it wouldn't matter? I think it's time for me to do it.
ME: Uh, no. I'll send Sarah to pick her up tomorrow or the day after, no worries.
CAROLINA: Thanks, goodnight.
I hung up, tears streamed down my face, I picked up my phone and texted my bestfriend, Kately.
"Kaley, I need somewhere to stay, and I thought of you, since you live alone? I might go with my daughter. Let me know, i'll get a job, and help pay the rent. Please i beg you. -Sarah."
It took her a while to text back, so I went in the shower, and took a long refreshing bath. Then I sneaked into my mothers room, and got and couple of suit cases. I got all of my clothes and shoved it in the biggest bag. Then I got all my hair products, underwear, bras, and put them in a smaller case. The rest of my stuff stayed in my closet. Except for my shoes, I went downstairs and got a bag, to put all my shoes in. I put the 3 bags, under the bed to hide it.
I checked my phone, and certainly Kayley texted back, I opened the text and it read: "For sure, yes you can come. You don't even have to get a job, you can take all the time you need. :) see you tomorrow? Have everything packed, i'll pick u up in the mornin."
I was so happy, I texted back: "THANK U SOOO MUCH. I love you bestfriend. *:"
I went downstairs, and called Carolina.
CAROLINA: Yes, Karen?
ME: Oh, uh yeah. Sarah said she can pick Kassidy up tomorrow morning, whats the address, may I have it?
CAROLINA: Sure it's, 4987 west, 78 ave, 761185.
ME: Thanks! Please have Kassidy packed by tomorrow! Goodnight.
~~ My phone ringing woke me up in this cold morning, I checked to see who it was: Kaley.
ME: "Hello."
KALEY: I'm outside.
ME: Oh, crap. Can you come inside my mom isn't home, maybe we can hurry before she gets here.
KALEY: Ugh, can't. Just come!
I hung up, and ran to the restroom, and brushed my teeth, I got the 3 bags, and rushed downstairs. Leaving my mom a note: "You said I couldn't care for my daughter, and now i'm going to prove you wrong. I'm moving out, and i'm going to live with my little Kassidy. Goodbye. -Sarah."
I went to the car and put everything on the back seat. "Were are we off to?" Said Kaley, excitedly. I gave her the adress to Carolina's house and we drove off.
I am finally going to get reunited with my beautiful Kassidy'Starr.
