A Sky Full of Stars

Chapter 2

Freedom is what I really want from the start.

Ito ang matagal ko ng gusto noon pa man na ipinagkait sa akin ng mga magulang ko.

Mom and Dad was really a loving and caring parents to kuya and alia, they changed when my sister alia died a few years ago.

Yeah they was like that but not at me. Hindi ko alam kung bakit sa akin lang sila ganon pero anong magagawa ko? magulang ko pa rin sila.

After what happened to alia, Me and my brother mourned for my sister. Also the Whole family of Evidente.

This is the day when my parents made me feel that I am not really important anymore.

Because even from the start, I wasn't.

and

The reason why my sister died is me.

"Seah?"

I came back from reality when my brother tap me at my back.

"Are you okay?" He look at me like I'm too space out.

Do I look okay?

Cause' the truth is I'm not.

"Of course, I'm just thinking about on what will gonna happen to me at this point."

"What point seah?"

Oh.

"Kung anong mangyayari sakin ngayon kuya. You know that what happened in the past can't bring me back from my old self. I'm scared to get attached and leave me like i'm nobody else. Ikaw at si archer lang ang tanging nagpaparamdam sakin na importante ako at hindi ako iniwan"

Tumitig siya sakin. I see. I see pity and sadness in his eyes, but I don't need it.

"You don't have to fit yourself to anyone. If someone wants to be in your life they will do anything to make you feel happy and love. Pero kung may gusto talagang makipag kaibigan sayo hayaan mo sila mag-iistay naman sila kung talagang tunay sila, like archer diba? Hindi naman kawalan ang mawalan ng kaibigan na hindi ka naman pinapahalagahan nandito ako at maging ng mga taong nagmamahal sayo seah, always remember that okay? You deserve to be love, If they leave you that easily it means they're not worth it to be in your life"

I nod and just looked away. Forcing myself not to cry again.

"I'll try my best to enjoy my college life kuya, So you don't have to worry about me anymore. I think I'm okay"

"Whatever you say sis just do your best and study well."

He kiss my forehead before Manong Lando open the backseat door of our car.

"Be careful and always take care seah."

"You too kuya. I got to go or else I'll be late, thankyou."

He nod and stay there while staring in our moving car, I can't see him because were too far in our house so I just laid my back in the back rest and close my eyes.