The Photographer | Jyatt

|Chapter 32|

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Wyatt

"You really are an asshole, you know that?" Finn said angrily as he packed up his stuff.

"I know" I agreed. "That's why I'm doing this"

"You can stop with that bullshit, too. None of this is on you, it's not your fault that some people are psychopaths"

"Yeah, but they were my demons to deal with, and by letting Jaeden into my life, those demons latched onto him too"

Finn sighed.

"You just don't get it, do you? Look, it's bad enough what you're doing, you're hurting everyone, but I can't even tell my boyfriend, or my best friend. You do know he's leaving soon, too? With us?"

I felt a lump in my throat.

"I know"

"And what happens next time he comes to visit Noah?"

"I don't know! I'll probably have moved again anyway..."

Finn finished packing and sat in front of me, forcing me to look at him.

"Look, I get it, okay? You feel guilty, you feel like all you do is hurt him or let him down. I've been there, with Jack. I used to think I wasn't good enough for him, but you know what he taught me? It's part of being in love! And love is worth it. That not every fucking negative thing that happens is one hundred percent bad or at least not my fault. Shit happens, what matters is you're there for him and you love each other. You're a good guy, Wyatt. Do the right thing, okay? I'd advise against breaking up, at least on your part, because Jaeden will be pissed if you do decide to see him, but at least say goodbye to him, okay? You don't get to choose if you get hurt in life, it happens no matter what, and you don't get to just check out of someone's life, especially not like this. That's Jaeden's choice, let Jaeden choose. He deserves everything good in this world, and he definitely deserves the truth, at least"

I rubbed the scar on my back and mulled it over. Everything he said made sense, and was more than right. I'd gotten lucky to have someone like Jaeden come into my life and give me his all, his love, his heart...

I was lucky that knife missed all my vitals, and I felt so damn guilty when I asked the doctor to tell the fake news to everyone except Finn, and even more guilty that I put Finn in that position and put Jaeden through this.

"You're right" I said. "Jaeden deserves the truth...I can't keep hurting him anymore. I'm just...I'm so scared of losing him"

"Go tell him that" Finn chuckled. "Before I drag you to him. He's literally across the yard"

"Alright, I'm going" I snickered.

"Good boy"

Jaeden

"Jaeden?" Mom knocked.

"Come in" I answered.

She opened the door but stood in the doorway.

"You finished packing?"

"Yeah, just gotta grab a thing or two. What's up?"