IS LOVE EVER ENOUGH

DON'T TAKE ME BACK

It has been 10 years since I shut the world out of me.That incident changed everything about me.No one knew the real me,who my name is or what my gender is.I called myself Ria,I acted and dressed like a boy.I was a Boy.I hated this gender but i pretented to be one.just to protect myself one Last chance.There is nothing like love and love is never enough.The beast who said was my father proved to me there is nothing like love,there is no pure relationship.That man took my innocence,I trusted him but he still did that to me.
Even after years,even after I saw his blood on my hands I just can not erase that day out of my mind.
10 YEARS AGO
I tucked my half naked body on that thin blanket,closed my eyes and wished for tomorrow. My father was still not home when i got to bed.In the middle of my sleep,I felt someone touching and sniffing my hair.I just smiled because I knew it was him.Frankie.My only loving faather.No one can touch or even enter my room .The touching and sniffing stopped for a while and for a second I thought he went to his room.But no,he was still there.Frankie got in my bed,he slept besides me,I could feel his naked cold body rubbing upon my body.I felt a chill spine .What is he doing.My eyes popped out and stared into space.I started to feel his hands over me now.I can not stand this.Cleared my throat and maybe hoped he will come to his senses and stop.He continued instead .My eyes became blurry,am I dreaming?IS this really my father?.I stood up  and glanced at my bed.It was him.Frankie.My biological father.How could he ? Tears rolled down my cheek,I froze to that spot,and looked at him.A smile crossed  his lips.”I never knew you were this warm princess,let’s do it quickly then we sleep and pretend nothing ever happened".How could he even say that.There was no tomorrow.I tried to pace to the door and escape from this beast.He acted faster than me,grapped my leg and I made a heavy floor on the ground.My head  even suffered an injury due to that.I did not care about the blood coming from my head or the numb I felt down my body.I fought my leg through his grip and dived for the door.Oh no! It was locked,But I kept on pulling down the locker,screamed my lungs out for help.It was of no use.It was midnight,everyone was peacefully asleep.I kneeled down in front of him.Begged him to leave me alone but instead he kept on laughing “I’m not going to be harsh princess”Can this dream end now.My tears did not dry up.How could he.He ripped my night dress off forced himself onto me.Took the pure innocence of the child who he called his own.My body felt like ripping apart.My heart changed and the words he kept on saying just pieced me even more “love is never enough".I rested my head and turned not to face this man wanting to give up.I saw a glamour stone my mother gave to me on my last birthday with her,I loved that stone,it was beautiful and of course heavy that you will not even wish that by mistake it can fall on your toes.I stretched my hand to reach it.Finally I managed to fit it in my hands, used all my strength and hit Frankie's head with it.He  became unconscious and fell on my legs.That was not enough.I picked that stone again and smashed his head with it a couple of times till I thought i was  satisfied .Blood was all over me,His blood and my  blood.I was a mess.Tried to stand up and failed multiple times because of the pain between my legs, finally I managed to .
All of a sudden there were lights on my window,I limped towards it and found out it was the police.How they come so late.They spoted me and I waved back.We did not see the key so they were forced to break my door to get in.An ambulance came after a while and I was examined and helped.I was left out of the hook because it was a defence from the dead beast.Yes I killed him.But I am not satisfied.