The girl with bulimia (Nash grier fanfic) *May Trigger*

Chapter 21

It was 6:00 am I decide to go to school today I know I'll end up trying to kill myself stating home alone. I sat I my bed staring at the bathroom door in my room. it was calling me I could her it. Malina Malina it was chanting I was about to get up but then there was a knock on the door. Matt pocked his head into my room. "hi Matty." I say. "Hey Lina Bina." Matt says giving me a small smile. I lay back on my bed and sigh. "I'll come up and help you down stairs ok." he says. "ok thanks." I say. "Lina I know this is hard but please don't let them get to you today." Matt says. "HOW I AM I NOT SUPPOSE TO WHEN I HAVE A BROKE LEG BECAUSE OF THOSE BITCHES AND THEY MAKE MY LIFE A LIVING HELL MATT HUH EXPLAIN THAT TO ME." I shout at him. he sits silent. "yeah I thought so just go and let me get changed Matt." I say. he sighs,gets up, and walks out my room. I get up on my crutches and go to my draws and grab a pair of shorts, one thigh sock, a crop top , my sweater shirt and one van shoe.
It took me some time to get dresses because of my leg. Soon I did my hair and braid my bangs and pinned them to the back of my head to make a crown I put my necklace on and scarf. I only put make up on. soon I couldn't take the taunting of the toilet I closed the bathroom door locked it and stuck my finger down my throat. I threw up all I could. I got up with my crutches and brushed my teeth. I came back into my room. "MATT." I yelled. "ready?" He said pocking his head in. "yeah." I say quietly. He grabbed my book bag and helped me down the stairs and to the car. we drove to Kilani to pick her up. "hey girly how you feeling." Kilani said getting into the car. "better than yesterday." I say.
"Ok Li Li." she says. soon we arrived at school. Kilani helped me out of the car and gave me my crutches. Matt carried my bag. when we walked in all eyes where on me. some where laughing some just stared and some have me pity eyes. we reached my locker and put my unnecessary books in it. "hey beautiful." I heard Nash say. i turned around on my crutches and hugged him. Kilani looks at him. she still feels he is up to something. Matt smiles and hands Nash my bag with my books and closes my locker. "see you at lunch Lina Bina." Matt says heading to gym. "see you then Matty. I say as he walks off. "Hey mally." Shawn says walking over to us. "hey." I say. soon we all head to Ap health. Kilani Shawn and Nash got in the elevator with me. we get to the third floor and walk to the class. As I came into the class all eyes where on me. "oh looks what the fat brought in Malina and her broken leg." Katrina says. the whole class laughs. I sit next to Nash and look down. "She probably broke it from being to fat and stupid." Nora shouts. I lower in my chair from embarrasment. the class starts to laugh more. "Nash be a doll and punch her for us. I look at Nash and look in his eyes to see if he would do it. I was scared to say I didn't know if he would. "no." he says. "what the famous Nash Grier won't beat up his victim." Katrina says. the class states at Nash and I. "No I'm not because she is my fucking girlfriend that's why." he says. Katrina gets mad. "watch you back bitch because you should know what's good for you since you already have a broken leg." Katrina says. I get scared and look down so know one will see the terror on my face. "I wont let her hurt you." Nash says. "but what will happen when your not here." I say. "Kilani and Shawn will be here." he says. "yeah thanks." I say and hug him. I look over at Kilani and Shawn and give them a small smile and they do the same. Class didn't really get better but I had Nash Kilani and Shawn to keep my a little sane. Ap math didn't go well either consider I have it with Katrina. Ap English is the only class I can escape her. Soon lunch cane around and I wasn't to happy because I know Nash and Kilani rill force me to eat. "I'll be back in going to the bathroom." I say to Matt Shawn Kilani Nash and the other guys. I get up on my crutches and I go into the bathroom not caring if anyone was in there I look the stall and throw up but try to stay silent while I do it. I flush the toilet unlock the stall and sit on the floor in the stall. "god I wish I could just get rid of that fat ass." I hear Katrina say walking into the bathroom. I put my hand over my mouth do they can't hear me breath. "I know I do t even know what Nash sees in her, hell he used to think she was so fat and ugly." I hear Rosalind say. "your way better for him Katrina." Ariel says. I sit there and try not to cry. but then my hiding spot is revealed when my crutch falls. I roll my eyes and I look up to see them standing in the stall with me. "oh and look who we have here the person we where just talking about." Katrina says laughing. I back away. "grab her and throw her crutches so she can't reach Them." Katrina says. Ariel puts them in another stall. Nora and Rosalind grab me while belle and Katrina start to dunk my head in the toilet. I squirm and try to get out of their grasp. "that's for being a fat ass." they dunk my head again. "this is for taking Nash away from me." Katrina says. the dunk my head again. "this is for being alive." she says. they dunk me on last time.
"This is because your ugly and do t deserve Nash." she says. they let go of me and walk out. I sit on the floor crying and wet. I can't move without my crutches and May bag is in the lunch room. I cry till I can't cry and anymore tears. "oh my gosh Malina, I knew I shouldn't have let you go by yoyrself." I hear Kilani say walking in. "where are your crutches?!" She says. "n-next stall." I say. she goes and grabs them and helps me up. she tells the other girls to get out and she helps me up onto the sink. she fixes my make up and help me dry my hair. in the prices I keep my head hanging low. "Lina please hold your hear up." Kilani says. "I can't."i say quietly. "why?." She says. "because of what they said it made me realize I dont deserve anything, I'm nothing but a fat ass and ugly and I sure as hell don't deserve Nash." I say. "Now that isn't true, no matter how much I feel he is up to something you swerve him and he makes you happy." she says. "can you just give me my crutches." I say. "sure, but always know you deserve something Lina." Kilani says. "ok." I say getting on my crutches. I walk out and back Into the cafeteria and everyone except for the boys laugh at me I keep my head low and sit down. I feel Nash kiss my cheek and put his Caen around my waist. Kilani smiles softly at me and so does Matt. I sigh and just sit there with my head hung low.
I had free period next and I was looking forward to it, go. Up to the roof top garden and sit. The bell rang I got up and Nash carried my bag and followed me to the elevator we went to the forth floor. got off and went to the stairs leading up. Nash carried me up and my crutches. once we were out he let me down and have me my crutches. we went over to the bench and sat. "I'm sorry about what happened in the bathroom babe." he says. "I deserved it." I say looking down. "No you don't." He says. "yes I do, everything I do makes me deserve the things that happens to me." I say. "Malina stop saying that about yourself you don't deserve this, I was stupid to bully you ok, I want to you to understand i love you and your the most amazing girl there is not matter if your broken or not whether you have a eating disorder or not." Nash says. what he says bring tears to my eyes I turn away and he turns my head back towards him. he wipes my tears away and kisses me. it felt good and a real and I felt a spark. I kiss back and then he pulls away. He smiles and smile back. "what would do if you found out I died." I ask him. "I would be devastated knowing the girl I love let me for good." He says. I kiss he cheek and he puts his arm around my waist. "I hate having this cast I can't dance." I say. "You only have to wear it for 3 weeks babe." Nash says. "but three weeks is to long." I say. "no it won't if you occupy yourself." he says. "I guess." I say. The bell rings and we get up Nash helps me to gym even though I won't be doing anything. I just sit there and watch them play sports. soon it was the end of the day. I was going to my locker when Katrina kicks my crutch from under me. but I feel someone catch me before I fall. I look up and see it's Nash. then I see Kilani jump on top of Katrina and beat her. Kilani was whopping her was but she was pulled off of her by the principal. nash walks me to my car with Matt. Nash kisses me and helps into the car. soon Matt and I get home and we see dinner is ready. we ate and Matt helped me up to my room and left. I locked my door and went to the bathroom and threw up the food I just ate.
I just heard thoughts of me being fat hate comments I've seen and words from Katrina in my head. I cried and had my head between my knees. I cried. once I finished I changed into yoga shorts a sweater shirt and climbed into bed. I thought of being wrapped in Nash arms and the warmth. Him protecting me and soon I fell asleep.