2 months today, thats how long me and Jai had been dating, he was amazing, his hair, his lips, his eyes, everything about him perfect, i was so lucky to have him, but he's unlucky as he has a twin brother named Luke, who obviously looks just like him.. Im not normally one to cheat, everything had been going so well, no arguements, nothing, just sweet love, but all of a sudden, i dont know, sometimes you can love someone, and wake up and just feel differently, i mean come on you cant really pretend whats not there.. We started arguing, everything was going downhill, even more so as i found my self highly attracted to Jai's twin brother Luke.. I didn't want it this way, but you know what they say you cant help what you feel, you cant help who you fall for, thats life.
One cold day, Jai had gone to play soccer so i was stuck at his waiting for him, watching the same old boring day time TV. Luke was still asleep upstairs, Beau had gone to fetch Skip& his beautiful girlfriend Zoe as they were planning on making a new video of just them, Luke hadn't been feeling well so he decided to pull out, being the kind individual Beau is, he understood and left him to sleep, just for today. I was making some toast, suddenly i heard someone coming down the stairs, it was Luke, moaning about his head hurting, he slumped him self down on the sofa, i decided i'd make him a cup of tea to try and cheer him up a little, he smiled and said thanks, he added a cheeky wink, my heart went all weird, i couldn't help my feelings towards him, i dont know, it just wasn't there with Jai anymore, we'd both lost interest, i'd be classed as blind if i couldn't see that, i just didn't want to be the one to end it..
I returned from my day dream to find Luke calling my name, i shook my head in confusion and replied "What" in a sturn tone of voice. I didn't mean to snap at him, but all of this relationship trouble was eating away inside my head. Luke could clearly see i was struggling, he got up and moved next to me, placed his arm around me and insisted i told him what was wrong. I broke down in tears as he repeated "whats wrong". I didn't want to tell him about what had been going on, but i knew if i didn't tell someone soon it was going to eat me up way to much then it needs to. With my eyes full of tears and a croke in my voice, i began to tell Luke everything that had been going on.. I explained how me and Jai just weren't the same anymore, that spark had suddenly been put out, of course i knew why but, i couldn't tell Luke that.. I dont know how he would react, what if he ran and told Jai, i had to consider their feelings, but i couldn't hide my own. He pulled me closer in for a hug, as he whispered "You know Jai will kill me if you tell him I said this, but you're wasted with him anyway". I froze, it was like everything just stopped, how could this be!? Had he liked me all this time!? I couldn't believe it, how do i know what to do from here? We spoke a little more, but i couldn't handle the tension in the room between me and Luke, i told him they'd run out of milk and got out of the house as quickly as i could, i turned on my phone and typed in Caitlyns number, i needed advice, she's the only person i could trust, who wouldn't judge me, the phone began to ring, i whispered to myself "Please Caitlyn, i really need you right now".. Without a fail, she picked up, i was scared, but i had to tell someone, and she's the only person i could tell anything to... What would she think? I could only tell her and find out..
She answered the phone. "Hey nigga whats up?" A normal friendly greeting from Caitlyn.. For the second time today I began to cry, Caitlyns excited tone of voice lowered to concerning one as she asked what was wrong.. I was simply a state, she invited me round for a girly chat as it was really what i needed, this is why i call her my bestfriend. It was a quick walk from my house to hers, but i practically ran to hide my red puffy face from the citizens of Melbourne. I arrived, with a beautiful smile she opened the door to greet me, she gave me a hug and we walked up to her room, i sat on her bed and just cried for a while.. I knew i could, i knew she wouldn't look at me any different, she'd just be there and help, because thats the kind of person she is, i was so lucky to have her, sometimes i dont deserve her, but im so glad she's my bestfriend and nobody else, I've known her for 7 years and i love her to pieces.
