Wendsday
May 20th, 2020
11:21pm
Right now I sit in the living room with all the lights off and a tablet in my grip. It's about 8 years old and the left side has annoying adhesive in which no one knows where it came from. In other words it's been through some shit, just like me. I'm not too young for this app nor am I too old. I'm in an exact place in my life where it sucks to be human. I'd rather be the dog that lays on the couch all day and is expected to do nothing but bark when a vehicle enters the driveway.
Life should be exciting right now, I should be sneaking out to parties and accidentally getting someone/getting pregnant or something. All I ever do is stare at the ceiling and think of all the bad things that I've gone through or things I'm missing out on like right now. My meds don't work if it wasn't apparent enough, either that or I'm too depressed for things to work. I don't know, I never do.
But one thing I do know for sure is I don't want my identity plastered on this account. That means no age, no gender, and no location. If you do figure it out at some point, don't say anything about it publicly or privately. This is my own personal safe space. I don't care if randoms do or don't find me, pass along... pass along.
