The Consequence Of Us

Joke's On You

Matteo

Her daughter. I fucked Lily's daughter. I feel like I am going to throw up or pass out. The feeling of the rug being pulled from under me settles. How could I have been so careless and impulsive? I didn't ask her full name, nothing. I saw a pretty girl, asked her out and here I thought it was going somewhere. I feel sick. I look at her and I instantly hate myself.

"Lily is your mother..." I take a seat and put my hands to my face, "What have I done?"

Adeline looks like she cant decide between crying or hurting me, I don't blame her but god knows what her family told her about me. "Are you..." Tears threaten to spill out, "Are you my dad?"

The instant thought of her thinking I am her father and we had sex is enough to set me off and make me want to throw up but I shake my head. She doesn't know who her father is. I do know who he is but I also know that there could be serious issues if the world found out. "Adeline, No." I shake my head, "Fuck no, no. Lily and I were just friends. She was two years older than me. I was only her friend."

She sighs, "I was going to commit myself, If I just fucked my dad."

I winced at the words leaving her lips. Thank fuck I wasn't. "This shouldn't have happened. I need to go." I stand up but she grabs my wrist, her eyes read so much confusion and hurt.

"I need to know. You were her friend. Cordelia has spent my entire life blaming you for her death, I need to know what happened to my mom. Why did she leave me? Who is my father? Matteo, I have lived in the dark about myself for twenty-two years. I don't feel like... I belong. My grandmother? She's cold. The only thing she has show me is how to secure a marriage and manners. That's it. I was never kissed, held, All the affection I've known are the small nods of my Grandfather and my nannies. I NEED to know anything about her..." She pauses to wipe the tears from her cheeks, "Please, Matteo."

My heart hurt just hearing the childhood she had. This is exactly what Lily did not want for her daughter. This is what she wanted to avoid, to be away from her family to raise her with love and she couldn't give her that. I sighed and sat down, "I met Lily when I was twelve, What you need to know is that Lily loved you more than anything in the world. She was ready to fight for both of you to have a family away from hers."

"Why did she leave me? She could've taken me with her, Its not like I would be missed." She let more tears spill down.

"Don't say that..." I look at her, "I honestly don't know what happened to her. The last night I saw her, she had come back from having you. She came to my house with a bag of money and wanting me to help her escape. I was a kid, I didn't know any better. I shouldn't have been driving either of us, but Lily was impulsive. She wanted to run with you to Maine but we never made it. I was detained and Lily never made it back, Cordelia threatened me and the next day, I found out that Lily was dead..."

Adeline looked at me with hurt in her eyes, "Do you think she killed herself because she saw no way out? Who's my father?"

"I always thought it was strange that she would give up when she was so ready to fight. Your father? Adeline... Your mom's life was not easy and I don't know if I should tell you everything. You dig further into the truth and it could be dangerous. I need to go, We.. Can't happen again." I stand up walking to the door.

"Matteo, you have answers that I need. You cant- Can't you just tell me?" She looked at me with eyes that could tear me apart but I couldn't.

"Your family is a very powerful family beyond my control. We can't see each other again," I restated.

But her eyes flashed with anger this time, "So that's it? I find out that you are my only connection to finding the truth, We have sex and now you want to fuck off and act like nothing happened? All those words you said before did not mean shit to you did they? Did you just say that to get me to fuck you?"