It's been about two weeks since Izuku's last breath. It's like my whole body feels weak. I feel emotionaly disabled. Whenever my mind wanders off to him I can't help but feel incomplete. I kept on talking about how I didn't have any time but I forgot to enjoy the little time I had... And now, I don't know what to do, but even an idiot like myself knows that I can't continue to mourn like this. I need to try to stay strong and stand up, even so, It seems imposible! How can I stand tall when the person that was there for me no matter what is gone. No more encouraging words, no more sweet kisses, No more corny jokes, no more innocent smiles, no more warm hugs There was nothing left! I don't know how to move on. Suddenly I heard a buzz coming from my phone. I wasn't even motivated to get it. I got out of my bed and checked my phone and saw a text message from Kirishima. 'How are you holding up Bakubro?' The text message read. I sighed and responded with a half assed answer 'Fine' I typed while grtting back into my bed. I felt like a fucking pig, all Iv'e been doing is laying down and grieving.All I wanted was him back. I thought as I fell into a long nap.
Everything around me was cold. While my feet where numb I felt a strange aura around my body. I opened my eyes to find trees with snow on top of them. Before I could process anything I saw Izuku and I running around. I looked in confusion while I saw my younger self standing in front of me. I thought it was strange but then he ran right past me like he didn't notice I was there. This place almost looked familiar. It looked like before Izuku and I found our quirks, we were still best friends at that time. I missed when It was like that, I wish quirks didn't exist in this stupid world. If it didn't there would be no Villains and more importantly no fight for power. Our limit wouldn't be determined by quirks, I just want to be peaceful. No hero no villain, Just me and him in a regular society.
As I was lost in thought I saw a different scenery. It wasn't snowing anymore It was actually very hot. I looked around to see I was in a completely different area. It seemed like middle school. This was the plae where most of my problems started. My god complex and narcissism were particularly strong at this time. And because of that I pushed Izuku away. I saw a scene that I really wanted to forget. What I saw was myself constantly torturing Izuku. I really don't know how he could forgive me for saying such awful things, not just saying but putting him through physical harm. If I were him I would try to avoid my self to any means possible, but If I think about it I didn't allow him to do that.
Then everything flashed and there I saw Izuku at the hospital with his dad. I wish I could've said anything other than that cliché "Sorry for your loss." Because if I tried to help him at that time maybe I could've saw a new side of him. I remember how much I used to despise him, I despised him because I couldn't understand my feelings. I thought because I felt feelings towards him I was weak, and I thought the only way to defeat weakness was to totally issolate it. If that meant to get Izuku out of my life so be it. I wish my mentality wasn't like that back then. I continued to see him and his dad in the hospital until another flash.
This time there was nothing, It was just pitch darkness. It was honestly comforting. But still I wanted to see him again, I wanna ask him a question. Right there and then I saw him. I don't know how he showed up but that wasn't any of my concern. I saw him get closer and closer until he was right there infront of me. I embraced him with what little emotional and physical strength I had. I cried and screamed for god knows how long. "Hey now, Don't cry Kacchan! I'm here and will continue to be by your side until the very end." He gently said while rubbing my back. I wiped my tears and broke the hug. I looked at him and smiled. I still had to ask him one more question. "Why, did you forgive me so easily, I did so much horrible things to you, but you still cared for me so why?" I said giving him a pained look. He looked at me and smiled, That inocent smile that I missed so much. "It's simply because I believed in you." He said, while hugging me again. "The dream is about to end Kacchan It's time to say our final goodbyes." He muttered while still in my tight embrace. "Wait! Before Isn't it too soon? I don't want to leave just yet."I cried holding him tighter. "Kacchan, I sadly can't stop this from happening." He sighed. "But I don't want your final moments with me to be so sad." He chuckled as he let go of me. "Izuku, is it okay for me to be happy without you?" I asked looking and admiring his features, for maybe this was the last time I could. "Of course! If you were miserable because of me I don't know what I would do." He said giving me a reassuring expression. "Alright then, I guess this is our goodbye," he took a shaky breath. "Continue to live life Katsuki." He said smiling as I heard my alarm go off.
I woke up in a cold sweat. Everything around me felt so unrealistic . It was noon already so I decided I check my phone real quick. I saw a text message from Kirishima again 'Hey Bakubro! Meet at my place at 6:00 pm sharp. Don't be late!' It read. I groaned. I didn't wanna get out of bed, but then I suddenly remembered the final words Izuku said to me. For his sake I will try to live my life to the fullest. It was already five O'clock so I decided to hop in the shower.
When I finished up I put on a white shirt, jeans and a leather jacket. I haven't been outside much so might as well wear something presentable. I opened the door of my room and saw my mom in the dining room. She was cutting Vegetables. When she heard my room door open she looked at me with wide eyes. She didn't say a word, all she did was walk towards me while her legs shook. She pulled me into a hug. I wasn't expecting that from my mother, she's usually so hard headed and temperamental so for her to get emotional surprised me. "I'm sorry," she cried "I'm sorry I wasn't there for you when you needed me." Her voice was filled with sadness and regret. If I want to start my life over maybe this is a good place to start. "It's alright mom, if anything I apologize for not being a good son." I said trying to give her a soft tone, but of course that failed so it sounded scratchy. She continued to cry on my shoulder. It was honestly sort of comforting knowing my mother has other emotions rather than just being angry. My mother wiped her tears and ruffled my hair. "Alright, now that I'm done being a big ol' baby why did you decide to see the world again." She chuckled, her voice still sounding congested. "Kirishima Invited me to his place, is it alright for me to go?" I asked, it was a bit uncomfortable trying to act polite. "Woah! When did you start asking for things, you would usually just take my keys and leave," She laughed "Anyway, of course you can go.It's nice that you are reconnecting with friends." she handed me the keys and I thanked her. She looked at me with surprise again since I never thanked her for anything.
When I opened the front door I felt a breeze. I had forgotten how outide felt. I walked over to the car and opened it. The aroma of car freshner made it's way into my lungs. I missed this smell, I remember when Izuku wasn't hopilitized yet I would drive to his house to play video games. I wish I could do that right now, but sadly it was impossible. 'Maybe I could make a quick visit to Inko.' I thought to myself. I looked at the time and daw that it was 5:15, I had a little more time left so might as well visit her. So, I did just that. I drove in the direction of her house.
I arrived to her house at 5:20, I decided to stay for ten minutes so I'd arrive to Kirishimas at about 5:35. I gentally knocked on her door getting more anxious by the second. When she opened the door she had teary eyes. It pained me to see her like this but I understand why. "good afternoon, Inko." I said giving her a smile. she looked at me and smiled. "What brings you here today, Katsuki?" I swear that just looking at this house gave me flash backs. "Just wanted to get memories from this house, also I wanted to check up on you!" I said, continuing to smile. Without saying anything she moved out of the doorway motioning for me to come inside. I walked inside of the house and when I did all of the memories rushed at me. It was too much to handle, I couldn't help but cry. I know he wouldn't want me to but it was too hard not to. If he wasn't here what am I supposed to cling on to.
🌺Woooo! This isn't the last chapter but sadly this story will be coming to an end soon. Key word *soon* it's not over yet! But anyway after this fan fiction is done what other ships do you wanna see from me? Not just from Mha of course but also from danganronpa toilet bound Hanako kun etc! So yeah I'll be taking requests for different ships! 🌺
Btw I'm not really proud of this chapter sorry if you aren't either (;'༎ຶٹ༎ຶ')
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✔︎The day you left me (Katsudeku)
Fanfic"Deku? DEKU WAKE UP STOP PLAYING!" Izuku Midoriya was an unlucky kid. He was diagnosed quirkless and right after diagnosed with leukemia. Although Izuku was living a hard life he still had hope.
