She Hated Him! Nah, She Didn't: A Jily Fan-Fiction

Part Eight - Why Do I Feel Like This

Hello I just updated this chapter because I'm dumb and forgot to post one of the parts. SO if you already read this, please read it again because I'm adding another section. Sorry! Won't happen again lol!

The next few weeks pass by uneventfully. We are getting a lot more homework and I am constantly staying up until 1 in the morning to get all my work done on time. We've had one Hogsmeade trip which I spent with the girl's. Nothing much else happened though and we are all super excited for Halloween, which is next week.

Marls and I are sitting in the Gryffindor common room on the couch, gossiping and just talking about anything and everything. "That's so crazy!" "I can't believe it!" "She did that?!" After a while, we decide to head to the kitchens for a snack. We walk towards the portrait and it swings open. 

We walk quickly and quietly down the stairs so no one follows us. We're not supposed to go to the kitchens ever really, but that doesn't stop us. Marls gets there first and tickles the pear which causes it to squirm and the portrait to open. We take a step inside and what I see makes me freeze. 

James. And another girl. Snogging. Marls raises her eyebrows and turns to me. I feel my stomach turn unpleasantly and Marls and I quietly turn and walk out and out of the corner of my eye, I see James look up at us. Thankfully he doesn't follow us out of the room. 

"What the fuck was that?" Marls whispers loudly as we run up the stairs. I shrug my shoulders trying to act like it doesn't bother me. Why does it bother me? It's James. He can be with whichever girl he wants to be, doesn't matter to me. 

I take deep breaths to steady myself and Marls looks at me confused. Thankfully she doesn't say anything although I know she's dying to. "But I thought- I thought he liked you!" She stammers out. I turn and look at her surprised. 

"James Potter does not like me." "Um yes he does. That's why he asked you out all these years! You are so oblivious!" Marls says looking at me strangely. I stare at her open mouthed. "Wait are you sure?" "Yes completely. It's really obvious. That's the reason he always asked you out! How did you not know?" She says, sounding impatient. "But I thought that he asked me out because I was the only girl that resisted him!" I say, my voice getting higher by the second. "You are so naive." Marls laughs. "Oh my Merlin! I was so mean about it! Oh, I feel bad now." I say, sounding worried. "I'm just going to go to my dorm for a little. I'll see you later." I say and manage a smile not wanting her to think anything's wrong. I mean nothing is wrong. Is it? 

"Oh, ok. Bye." Marls says happily and walks back to the Gryffindor common room. "Quidditch pitch." I mutter and Bathilda Bagshot nods at me and opens the door. I take out a book and lay on the couch. I open it to my page but don't read. Instead I sit there, lost in thought. 

James really liked me? I was so mean to him! I didn't know he really felt that way. But if he likes me, then why was he snogging that girl? Who was that girl? Why am I so angry? I mean James can snog whoever he likes! It has nothing to do with me! Why should I care? I don't like him, so it's not that. After debating for a long time with myself, I decide that I felt that way because James and I are friends and it's just weird to see him snogging a girl. That's it.

-A few days later-

After a particularly long and difficult day, we start walking towards the Gryffindor common room, and I stop in the middle of the hallway. "I think I'm just going to go to my dorm. I'm pretty tired. See you tomorrow!" I say to the group. "Aw come on Lil! It's Friday!" Mary says smiling sweetly. "I know, but I just want an early night." "Ok. Goodnight!" Marls calls out. I turn around and head to my common room.

"Lily! We need to talk." I whip my head around and see Severus running up to me. "No. I don't want to." I say coldly. "Lily please." He begs. "No! Leave me alone." He reaches for my arm and I hit him away from me. 

He raises his wand to me and mutters, "Incarcerous." "Severus! Stop!" I scream. Hopefully someone hears and can help. "What the fuck are you doing!" He steps closer to me - his face inches from mine. I feel his gross warm breath on my face and then I hear footsteps. Please be someone coming to help. Please! It's James! Oh wait, it's James. He looks around for a second, not seeing me. "James! Over here!" I yell. Yikes.

Severus sees James walking towards me and he runs away. Ugh the coward. James hurries towards me. "Lily! Are you ok? Was it Snivellus?" He asks quickly. I nod my head willing the tears not to fall. James mutters, "Diffindo" and the ropes fall off of me. 

He embraces me and lightly strokes my hair. His arms feel nice around me. Wait what? James Potter's arms feel nice around me? James Potter? Whatever, I can't think about that right at this moment. I let him hug me for another minute and then I break away. 

"Thanks." I say quietly. "I'm going to go to our common room now." "Oh. I'll come with you then!" He says, walking besides me. "No, it's ok. You can go back to the others if you want." I say, looking away. He gently touches my arm. "Really Lily. It's ok. I'll come with you." I take a deep breath to calm myself. "Ok. Thanks." We walk back to our room and James says, "Quidditch pitch." 

I walk over to the couch and sit down, staring blankly at the wall. James stands still for a moment before sitting down next to me. 

"Do you want to talk about it?" He asks quietly. I shake my head and the tears come silently. "Not right now." I sigh. "Actually I do." James nods his head. "So I was walking back to our room alone when I heard Severus yelling my name from the other side of the hall. He ran up to me and kept asking if we could talk, which I refused. I told him to leave me alone and then he tied me up. I think he was trying to like kiss me or something but then you came and he ran. That's it." I finish. 

"Wow, I'm so sorry." James says, staring at the wall. It may look like he's not paying attention, but I know he's just thinking. "I'm going to kill him." He mutters and turns to me. "No don't. It's ok. It's not that big of a deal." I say, my voice weak. "Yes it is! He has no right to come up and attack you like that. He can't do that!" He says, looking angry. He turns back to me and his face softens. "You should tell someone about this." He says gently and runs his hand through his hair in exasperation. "Maybe." I mutter. 

We sit for a few minutes in silence and I try to wipe away my tears. We turn so we're sitting cross legged, facing each other and he looks directly at my face. His hazel eyes on my green ones. We lean towards each other at the same time and I feel his lips softly on mine for a moment. I pull back very quickly and I notice James is biting his lip, his face slightly red. 

I feel my face flush as well. "I'm sorry." I say getting up. "That was dumb. I'll just go to bed now." I get up and leave the room before he can say anything. I'm so stupid! Why would I do that? I don't even like him...

What the hell is happening to me? It was probably just the intensity of the moment, I reassure myself as I get changed into pajamas, trying to ignore the butterflies in my stomach. I climb in bed, pulling the covers up. Tomorrows going to be a crazy day. 

One more thing. I really want to write some Jily one-shots so if you guys have any ideas, please comment them below or message us! Thank you!