Friends Only ≫ h.s au

Chapter 4: Should I?

Dawn is played by Kaya scodelario the gurl above and outfit above :3

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It's been a week avoiding him, and the pang of hurt and guilt is slapping me from left to right. Harry honestly did not do anything wrong, I'm the fuck up so why blame him? I'm very a needy person for attention, but right now - I don't think I need anyone's attention. I think I'm better off alone.

I stand up from the couch, my feet padding along the hard- wood floor. I walk to my kitchen counter top; picking up my phone from the counter top, I clutch the phone tightly at the palms of my hand. Debating if I should even call him or will he even answer? Tell him I miss him, or say that I planning on going to Hawaii and never come back. Or should I keep a private profile and not tell anyone about it. Without thinking I nearly pressed the call button but he beats me to it.

The color drains from my face and my breathing started to get rapid; debating if should I even answer his call. And I still don't know if I can, maybe he will apologize - he won't - he'll just ask me to hook him up for another date with Kristen. I carelessly answer it hearing his breathing from the other line.

"Yes?" Trying to sound as calm as possible but truly my heart is bursting right now.

"Dawn I-"

"look Harry I can't make another date for you and I'm very busy" I sigh cutting him off, he doesn't respond after I cut him off. The voice at back of my head keeps on telling me to forgive him. Sure enough it's easy to forgive but the only person I can't seem to forgive is myself, the hatred I have for myself is not bearable.

After a century waiting for his response I decided to hang up.

Once I pressed the end call button I place my phone on the marble countertop . I knew it stupid all the things I do just for Harry's attention but that's basically me. I can't help but I just need someone to be there for me to help me, fight , fight all the problems I have and be happy with all the power of might I have. Which right now I have none but pity and grief for myself. Maybe I should just stay for a while and wait at least three more weeks until he apologizes and if he doesn't I will leave, for good.

I know it's selfish for me to do it but nothing's going to happen if I give up right? So I won't, I will not give up and I will fight with all my might to make Harry apologize and to see what he can't see before him, me. I go back to my room passing through the small hallway I have connecting my living room to my kitchen, I go up the stairs and checked the time, 7:30, shit I'm late!

I rush to my dresser and picked out a white skinny jeans and some black beetles tank top I rush down the stairs getting my phone from the countertop and my wallet from my small knapsack. I decide not to bring a knapsack since I was running late, I rush out of the door sprinting through the neighborhood and my neighbors giving me a small smile, I returned the favor since it was the most polite thing to do that my dad taught me. I turned left sprinting to the small ice cream store, I open the door to; the bell signaling someone late was coming in which was me. I see my Marie gave me small amused and irritated smile, Marie, is my boss and she works at the register. While I work as a waitress. I gave Marie a kiss on the cheek ( which is always how I greet her, she says it's how her home town does it ) , she gladly returned the favor . I rushed putting my apron on and tiny hat with this small ice cream at the side, it's surprisingly cute actually.

"Why were you late" she winked, oh my god she thinks I did the dirty. I laugh and shake my head with big smile on my sad face.

"I didn't do anything Marie, it's just a hard time at home" I sigh, the smile on my face fading remembering all things happened to yesterday. And to say Friday was supposedly to be the best day of the week. She gives me an encouraging nod signaling me to spill all the details.