You are the Music in Me

Chapter 36: "Not Right Now" / "A Pinky Promise"

I'm sorry for leaving y'all on such a cliffhanger... well I'm sure you all loved it! Libby and I are just gonna apologize in advance and you'll see why. Anyway, enjoy this chapter. It's more of a part 2 to the last one. I'll have the next chapter up today or tomorrow because originally it was gonna be part of this chapter but I decided not to. Byee "stay safe and stay sane"

Josh: Olivia I- *screw it* *I lean in and kiss you*
Olivia: Jo- *WHAT THE? OMG this is happening! This is happening now... like now now. What do I do?* *I start to kiss back*
Josh: *Oh my god... am I actually doing this?!* *I put my arms around your waist*
Olivia: *Pinch me. Somebody. Anybody. This isn't real, is it? Did he just- awww he put his arms on me. I feel like I should do something to stop this. But I just don't want to. But this isn't right is it?*
Josh: *I pull you in tighter*
Olivia: *This is great. It's so perfect. Just everything is amazing. I just... I don't think I can do this. It's just too much. I really thought I was ready. Gosh, stupid emotions. I have to stop this* *I start to pull away a little* Josh I-
Josh: *my heart drops* *Oh no....what have I done?! Just make sure she's okay* I'm...I'm sorry
Olivia: No it's just... I-I don't think I'm ready yet. I just, I'm sorry.
Josh: *as much as I hate this...I understand. She just broke things off with Ethan...I knew this would happen...that's why I should have waited* Hey, it's okay... I understand.
Olivia: No... no, you shouldn't have to "understand" gosh I- I gotta go
Josh: Oliv-
Olivia: *runs off stage*
Josh: *Honestly, I don't even feel that weird about it...I just hope she'll be okay*

Tim: *ends his phone call and goes to walk back inside and sees Olivia running out* *walks up to Josh* Is everything okay?
Josh: I don't know yet. I'll see you later.
Tim: Well, you guys sang beautiful as always. I almost wish that version could be in the show *laughs*
Josh: Thanks Tim.
Tim: Good night Josh. Amazing job today.
Josh: Goodnight.

~

Olivia: *I walk outside after I get all changed in makeup* *What the hell have I done?! I blew it! The one chance I had! Cause of my stupidity. God, I'm such an idiot*

Josh: *I walk outside to find you standing alone outside in the cold* Hey, do you need a ride? *I ask softly and sincerely*
Olivia: Oh, um... sure. *You see how sweet this man is?... and you just crushed him. Now he doesn't even care about what just happened, all he cares about is you and how you feel. If only my mind wasn't so selfish*

Josh: *We walk to my car and I open the door for you and close it. I go to my side and get in and start the car.*

Olivia: *Should I say something? I mean, I don't want to make things even more awkward.*
Josh: Hey, uh... please don't feel weird about what happened back there...I think we both just got caught in the moment for a second *just for a moment* Just know that I really do care for you and if we decide to try things out one day, I'd be more then happy to, but if not, I would be completely happy with that too. *I start the car and pull out*
Olivia: *I start to tear up a little* *He's the most amazing person I've ever met. He just- he doesn't even care about his feelings... he's just- Joshy* Yeah, everything seemed right just for a moment. I'm sorry, I'm still just really caught up with my emotions. I didn't mean to hurt you.
Josh: You didn't hurt me...you could never hurt me. Remember...I'm always gonna be here for you no matter what...I promise...I pinky promise *I hold out my pinky*
Olivia: *I smile and link on* Hey hand on the wheel Bassett.*I laugh softly*
Josh: *I laugh a little and put my hand back on the wheel* You were amazing today. From an audience perspective... it looked incredible. All the lights and everything was so amazing.
Olivia: Thanks. I try to be good.
Josh: Am I hearing....uhh... self doubt....no that couldn't be... it was a pinky promise *I look over at you and smile and laugh a little*
Olivia: No. No, that was just an answer. I am always trying to do good because I think I'm amazing if I try to be good.*I say a little defensively*
Josh: Mmm that's what I thought *laughs softly* And your always amazing.
Olivia: See...no pinky promises were broken.
Josh: *I pretend to wipe sweat off my forehead* Fhew! That was a close one.
Olivia: *I start laughing* That. That was funny.
Josh: *I laugh*

Josh: *I get to your place and open the car door for you and help you grab your things*

Olivia: Thanks for getting my stuff. Takes a big strong man to carry my things. *I laugh*
Josh: No problem! *I carry some stuff inside for you* Anyways, I should I probably get going. *Should I hug her or is that pushing it?*
Olivia: *I lean over and hug you* *Dang she's making risky decisions... shut up inner Olivia. I've had enough of you today*
Josh: *and that answers that* *I hug back*

Olivia: *whispers* Thank you for understanding
Josh: *whispers* Of course and I'm sorry again
Olivia: Don't be sorry.*I pull back* Maybe I'll be ready someday. J-Just not right now.
Josh: *I nod* *not right now...* Bye Olivia
Olivia: Bye Josh

Josh: *I get back in my car and drive home*

Josh: *I get home and walk straight to my piano. I start to play random notes and try and come up with a song* *sings* I know it's not.... not right now, but I will find a way for us to be somehow...

Olivia: *I get ready for bed but find myself at my piano* *sings*
Hey
Are we okay
I can't have us fall apart
Can't have you fade away
Stop cause now I'm afraid
I feel you may walk out if my life
So if you could just please say

Josh: *sings* I know it won't it won't be soon
But you can bet your ass, I'm coming back for you
For you Oh
Josh: *I play it again and record myself*

Olivia: *sings* I'm never gonna leave your side
Never gonna run away and hide
Never gonna let you be alone
Crying and so emotional
So just let
These few words be
A Pinky Promise
Between you and me

Josh: *My head starts to nod as a I doze off. I decide to get ready for bed.*

Olivia: *I finish up and get in bed.*

Josh: *I get in bed* *I don't think I regret anything...but I can only hope Olivia isn't feeling super awkward....I'm glad I put myself out there though... I mean it was kinda scary though*

Olivia: *Gosh I really hope Josh doesn't think I don't like him. I do. I really really do. I don't know... I guess just a part of me wasn't ready. But emotions aside, Josh is a reallllllly good kisser. Besides, it takes a lot for me to like a guy. They need to be more than just looks... but I mean if his loving personality comes with those lips, I- mmm. This kid is driving me insane.*

Libby and I are so sorry... this was so hard to write. We spent such a long time figuring out what should happen between these 2. Just wait and see....