I hate you but I pretend like I do like you, the trust is my whole life is a fantasy and full of lies. Am notthe person you think I am, am a dangerous motherfucker who wants nothing but pussy. And I don'tgive a fuck, I tell people that I have a girlfriend but I don't that is my biggest secret that no oneknows except from my forever friend I call my girlfriend- Jessica. My true story all started when I wasjust, In grade 1...So, my first crush was Bethany in grade 1, she was my only friend when I was in the northern part ofsouth America. Since I left the north, I do wish I could be with her and tell her how I feel about herbut I lost my chance in many ways. And I pray we see one day because people do say that this worldis a small world, I strongly believe that. So, I left the north and came to my hometown-Greenhill, Icontinued my grade 6 in a school called High field Intl school. Where I met Catherine, a girl fromanother country who came to spend some time with her mother. Catherine was beautiful andgentle. I always got the chance to tell her how I feel about her. Though I had a lot of opportunitiesbut as usual I was so shy to tell her. Am just so shy to express my feelings. My sit partner was Gwen,she is a smart girl with dignity and respect. She is a funny girl and cool, I and my best friend Lukaloves hanging out with her. Luka is so crazy and that is what I like about him, he is good in games likeme, our favorite game was Fornite. We talked about ourselves a lot and what we will become in thenearest future. After, we passed out from grade 6 I thought maybe I could get the chance to spendmy life without a girlfriend after all I wasn't the only one without one- that was a lie though, all my mates had girlfriends but I don't even Luka had- Jane, but they broke after a disagreement. Jane wascheating on Luka with another guy, Maxwell, the richest kid in grade 6- awkward right!On a fateful morning, I went with my Elder brother-Jason for a little walk-out, I met Catherine andLuka hanging out which Luka never told me of. I hid myself behind a tree to see what will happen, tosurprise my best friend and the girl I have always crushed on were kissing and laughing together. Iwas shocked, terrified and filled with hatred, I left in anger I don't think Luka or Catherine saw me. Igot home crying and feeling lonely and left out, Luka actually knew that I really loved her butCatherine doesn't. Throughout the day, I kept thinking of what to do but I had no idea, my momnoticed my strange behavior at dinner.
"Sweetie aren't eating"
"I am mom, I just wanna think for a while"
"What is wrong sweetie, rough day right"
"Yes mom"
"Tell me about it"
"It's just this girl I like, but..." I stammered
"Hmm I thought as much" My mom paused like she does know what was wrong with me.
"You know you are a young boy in grade 6 and you don't need girls now, wait for some timeand you will want as many girls in your life"
"Anyways, Luka came around..."
"What did he say" I popped in
"He wanted to see you"
"I don't want to see him"I left the dining table in anger well I kind of made so obvious. That same evening...
*KNOCK*KNOCK*
"Raphael please get the door"
"Okay mom"
I opened the door to see Luka by the door, I closed on seeing him but he used his leg to block it
"Dude are you avoiding me?"
"Leave Luka"
"What is wrong with you Ralph"
"Nothing just leave".
"I have been keeping something from you".
"Like what going out with Catherine Behind my back" I said angrily.
He was surprised and over-whelmed:
"How do you know that?".
"I saw you today, don't tell me you wanna lie to me".
"Uhm mm".
"I see the reason Jane felt you, you are just a snitch "I poured my entire mind down, I didn't realize ithurt Luka so bad.
"At least am better than you in many ways, I have/had a girlfriend but do you have, You areso scared that you can't express your feelings to someone and that's the reason you keeplosing and I keep winning".
"You know what I am sick and tired of this, am out of your life for good. Pretend you don'tknow from today".
"Are you breaking up with me?" I asked
I hurt Luka so bad that he said terrible things from his mind, he looked at me and left angrily. I lostmy best friend and Catherine that day.
