𝗜'𝗠 𝗧𝗛𝗘 𝗢𝗡𝗘

I KNOW.

DISCLAIMERS:

This story was just a fiction. Any similarities to existing person (living or dead), places, events, or institutions is purely coincidental or we're just used by the author's imagination. Sorry for the grammatical and typographical error ahead.

JISOO'S POV

I was sitting in the swing, it was a simple night for me where I just need to ask myself again. I let out a heave sigh, I didn't know why do I need to suffer from this. I felt the cold wind embraced me. The wind describes my life a lot. I was about to stand up and walk back to my house when someone suddenly call my name.

"Joshuji..." that angelic voice.

I look at him, he's eyes are full of tears, I saw the pain on it. Here we go again, he's really a soft guy and he never change that kind of his attitude. I stay and wait him to talk for whatever his problem was.

"We fought again." he sobs

"What happened?" I said without looking at him.

"I just asked him about to the girl he was talking with last week. Because it seems like they really happy. I never saw him like that in the way we talked to each other. I just want to assure if he still loves me. But then, he got mad and I don't know why." he starts to cry again.

"I know it was kind of silliness to assume they have something to each other. But it really bothers me since he ignores me for a week. Am I wrong to asked him?" I looked at him.

Those eyes are full of pains, he loss a lot of weight in just a week. How could he ignores you when it was obviously you are suffering? I cleared my throat and sigh again.

"Even I tell you to leave him, you wouldn't do that. Just let it to pass by, maybe he will tell you soon." I said.

If you just listen to what I've told you, you will never feel the pain. But who am I to dictate your heart? I'm just your bestfriend and nothing more.

"Don't you think so?" Jeonghan asked.

I just nod at him and handed my handkerchief to him. I look up at the sky and let myself to asked again. Why? What's wrong with me? Am I not deserve to be with you? I look at him again, he still crying a lot. If you chose me from the very start, maybe you're not crying because of the pain but instead because of happiness. I smiled and stands up. I walked towards him and ruffles his hair.

"W-what?!" he asked.

"Stop being a crying baby. Let me walk you home." I start to walk and let him to follow me.

"Yah! Can I just stay in your house for a while?"

"No, I don't want a giant ugly baby to cry overnight in my house." I said and chuckles.

"You!" he rolled his eyes and sigh.

We just walked quietly until someone walk infront of us. I smiled, my time with him is already done. I looked at him but he still didn't move. I tap his shoulder and smiled.

"Sorry for what I have done a while ago, love." Cheol said.

"Explain everything to him, don't let him to go far away from you. He's too precious to be left, remember that." I tap Seungcheol's shoulder and leave them.

Before I could walk far away from them Jeonghan runs to me and hugs me.

"Thank you, Joshuji! You're really are my bestfriend." he said and smiles.

He walk back to Seungcheol and they held each others hand while still talking to each other. I just smiled at their sweetness but still I felt hurt. As I arrived at my house, I immediately walk to my room and laid. At this time, I know the answers now. He will never see us to be together as a lover but just a bestfriend.

I'm the one who's been with him since then. I'm the one who knows him well. I'm the one who he can lean on whenever he has a problem. I'm the one who loves him first before Seungcheol does but still he didn't chose me. Maybe, I'm destined to be just his bestfriend. A bestfriend who will love him secretly even it hurts him a lot.