I was perfect. I was fine.
The love of my life was all mine.
We sat there together happy with a smile, when all of the sudden the world stopped for a while. He wasnt there, and I was scared, I wake up and am shuttered by this terror. But I look up, with my big sad eyes, and there he is, smiling all wise. Hes mine forever. A promise we both made. But as I am thinking while we both lay, I love this man man more everyday. And when I go to sleep at night all warm in my bed, nobody could prepare me for the road ahead.
I wake up the next morning happy and cheerful, I send that goodmorning text that is all happy spiritual. I tell him how blessed I am to have him and that I love him, and he responds with dry words that makes our love sound slim. Everyone has off days, I tell myself, it will be okay dont blame yourself. I baby him with my words and show him I'm calm. He seems a little off, I wonder what's wrong. I compliment him so dearly incase he was feeling insecure, oh the love of my life, what wrong with you dear. I ask to call but he says no, I ask what's wrong and he says go. I try to be there for him with all my heart and let him know that we will never be apart. I give him space, some time to think, oh my baby please be okay, I'm worried about your peace. As I sit there worried about the love of my life, I pray he is okay and that he is feeling alright. A text pops up from my lovely boy, I open it instantly as I was feeling void. His message reads: My dear, we were never meant for eachother. I know it's the second time but I truly never loved you, I want to be mine. I enjoy other people, more than you, I'm sorry dear, but theres nothing you can do. I cry and weep as my heart starts to pound, I stumble when I walk and I hit the ground. No no no, I yell at the top of my lungs, my love my love, what have I done. He replies with: you have done nothing wrong, you are a good person, I'm just bored of you and my love for you was without purpose. He made me happy. He made me feel loved. Oh this boy was contagious like the stomach bug. But as my world fell from below my feet, I fought and fought for my boy to see, that I was good and I was kind, I dont understand how he wasnt mine. I cried. I cried. I tried. I tried. He left me and I didnt understand, how overnight my life had been damned. It was quick without warning and it hurt so bad. Oh what do I do now. What do I do now.
I text him goodnight and goodmorning everday, I let him know I'm here for him and that I will never stay. He leaves me on read but I still go, this man is my life, I'm not going to sit here and watch it go. I beg for him to at least call and explain, I tell him I dont understand again and again. We were fine for so long, a year it had been, but overnight everything changed, and there he went. I tried and I tried to pull him back in, the love of my life would not have me again. He pushed me away, but I stayed strong, oh my love, I will sing you a song. At first I was sad and I cried every night, I slept with things of his to help me not fright. I woke up and thought of him and hoped he was well. This man of my heart was putting me through hell. I didnt know how to cope, I had lost all hope. I wasnt happy and I had no hope. My love my love, I cry till I choke.
Days go by and I start to get mad, you said you loved me, you lied, you're bad! I did things with you that I would do with no other, because I believed you when you said you loved me, I never should have believed that mutter. You did me wrong and you made me believe, that you were mine, and that we would lay in the leaves. We talked about marriage and kids and fun. We even made plans in June with the sun. You blamed it all on me which was wrong, it was both of us, both of us, but I am not strong. I love you forever and you will always be mine, I gave my heart to you and I did not lie. My heart is yours, you will come to see, you hurt it so bad it needs extacy. My love I will wait, until you blindly see, I was there, you were there, its suppose to be you and me. I love you, I love you.
