I'm Trying

Prologue - The Funeral

Angelina

I stood there watching the coffin get lowered into the ground not being able to do anything about it. I see the dirt get pushed in the hole to cover him, one shovel at a time. Each thump I hear from the dirt hitting the coffin a tear falls from my eye.

I hear the thunder clap as the cool rain continues to mix in with my salty tears, slightly ticking me off. I look around me as everyone is isolated from me. I'm the one who sticks out like a sore thumb. All these people couldn't care less, it's all fake. These people didn't know him like I did, they're all fake, they're only here because they pity me since there's no one left.

I look into the sky watching the rain pour down as the clouds continues to darken. My eyes drift back to the nowhere covered coffin, which is just a rectangular dirt spacing on the ground. Time goes on and eventually everyone leaves, leaving me alone with him.

I sit there, my head in my hands sobbing, wishing I could bring you back. I read the gravestone over and over again, the same words running through my head "here lies Jonathan Jackson, beloved father, brother and son". I get so angry because I'm all alone now, I have no one. My uncle, his own brother didn't even come to the fucking funeral.

I'm never talking to them again, not until necessary.

I cry all my emotions out "I-I love you dad, I don't know how I'm going to do this without you. I love you so much. Come back. I-I can't do this without you." I give the gravestone a hug and stay there for a few minutes which seemed like hours. I slowly get up and walk away knowing I can't stay here forever.

Authors Note: So this is my first book, I'm not sure how It's gonna turn out but I hope It's enjoyable. Updates wont be consistent but I'll try to update as much as I can. Thank for reading :) ~Kisses