a little girl in blue

single parts

I wish you to activate the music in the media before starting your conference.

I arrived home, like every day, after a day of work. Night had already fallen and while I was getting out of my car, out of the corner of my eye, I saw a blue silhouette. I did not know what I had just seen myself saying that it was only a simple illusion due to fatigue.

When I unlocked the door of my house I saw this blue silhouette behind a bush.

I narrowed my eyes trying to discern what could be this choice, but seeing only too little, by the time I approach the figure, it had disappeared.

I then returned to the door and entered; as I closed the door, a small voice was heard.

- Help me, please ... Begged a light voice, surely the voice of a little girl.

- There is someone? I asked cautiously as I came out.

I stay standing for a few minutes outside my door but I got no response.

I end up going back definitively. I then went upstairs and dropped on my bed, not being hungry, I went to sleep directly. I don't bother to change and fall asleep quickly.

A few hours later I woke up, challenged by my stomach which did not appreciate having missed a meal.

I then went back down to the kitchen to get some things to eat to silence my stomach.

When I arrived in the kitchen a voice made me shiver.

- Help, I beg you ...

It was the same voice as earlier, I recognized very clearly, this little girl's voice asked for help.

I turn slowly and jumped when I see a little girl behind my back.

I stared at her for several seconds, trying to understand how and why she was at my house.

It was a little girl with pale skin, she had blond hair tangled between them, her face hidden by her bangs. She was also wearing a light blue dress.

I end up getting closer to her and squatting down to be at her height.

- What are you doing there, little one? I then asked the little girl gently.

I guess she was staring at me because I couldn't see him because of her hair.

- II don't have anywhere to go ... sighed the blond little girl sadly.

My big heart, unable to refuse to help someone in need, I decided to keep it here for the night.

I then held out my hand, offering her a smile.

- Tell me, what's your name?

- Alice. Replies to the little girl, whispering, her voice was so weak that I had barely heard it.

I was interested in having knee pain by being folded upon myself.

- Do you want to eat something chose Alice? I suggested going back to the kitchen.

Hearing no answer I turned around and what looked at the little girl who was shaking her head from left to right signifying that she was not hungry.

I then took his hand and then started to drag him upstairs.

- Come to sleep then, you know I have to wake up early to go to work tomorrow. I said to Alice continuing to climb.

She followed me and I then installed her in a room next to mine, and then I went to bed.

The next day she had followed me to my workplace, no one had commented on it.

I was at my computer, Alice sitting on the floor by my side when one of the boys came to work with me. He put his hand on my shoulder, then I looked up at him.

- You know you're not alone, we can help you with your work ... he sighed, smiling.

I understood that he offered to help me, then I looked at the other people who made up my team and they all seemed to agree with him.

I got up suddenly, dropping my chair by the way.

- I don't need you! I can manage on my own! I started.

- No, you need them ... They can help you, don't stay alone ... Don't lock yourself in ... Alice breathed so weakly that I couldn't hear her.

- If I needed you I asked you! I can do it alone!

I started to leave, not listening to their voices telling me to stay. I slammed the door behind me and went home, Alice still behind me.

I sat in an armchair and took my head in my hands.

After a few minutes, I had calmed down and I was staring at Alice now, I noticed many traces on her arms.

- What do you have on your arms?

- I did nothing ... she breathed again.

- I'm not accusing you of anything Alice, just tell me what these marks are ...

- My parents ... It was their fault ... It was they who hit me ... And no one helped me, people watched me suffer ... Sighed the girl made a tear fall on his cheek. She then buries her head between her arms and her knees.

I put my hand near her head so she could look at me but when I brushed her hair she suddenly looked up. His sudden movement had raised his bangs which allowed me to see his eyes, gray eyes that no longer shone, a look filled with sadness.

- Remember! She yelled, disappearing.

I was still staring at where it was, which was now empty.

I understood then.

This little girl did not exist, in any case, she no longer existed.

The little girl in the blue dress was me.

When I was little, the blows my parents inflicted on me, the loneliness, the need for support, the emptiness, the crying.

And now I'm alone again.

The madness has regained possession of me.

Bad memories come back painfully.

And the only help that could be brought to me, I had just rejected it and would not have anymore.

My movements were made all alone.

My mind no longer followed.

Madness dragged me into the kitchen and made me grab a knife from the sideboard drawer.

When I regained consciousness of what I was doing, my body was frozen, my mind was leaving, my blood was flowing on the two-tone tiles in the kitchen.

My eyes closed for the last time, and this. They would never see the light again.