Ferocious Affection (COMPLETED)

23RD

Ysa's

"Hey, homer." bungad ko nang sa wakas ay nasagot na niya ang tawag. Ilang beses ko na siyang tinawagan pero sa ilang ring ay hindi niya ito sinasagot. Ano bang pinaggagawa nito at tanghaling-tanghali?

"What is it, dummy?" I heard silence from his background. Wow, this is the first time.

"Where are you?" I said as I flipped the page of the book I'm reading.

Nangangalahating oras na akong nakatunganga rito sa library at puno ng mga librong related sa course ko ang mesa ko. I decided to spend my weekends here since malapit-lapit na rin ang finals. At kahit gano'n, wala akong naintindihan sa lahat ng binasa ko. I just hate the silence surrounding me, you know? It's eating the hell out of me. I'm just doing this para kahit bumagsak ako, at least I did my best. There will be nothing to blame.

"I'm in a bar."

"What?" I exclaimed. "Tanghaling-tanghali tapos umiinom ka? Parang no'ng isang araw lang ang sipag-sipag mo dahil sa finals, ah?"

"I cram, dummy."

"Whatever. I guess you won't make it here."

"Why?"

"Kailangan ko ng ingay."

"Wow!" nailayo ko bigla ang phone mula sa tenga ko dahil sa biglaan niyang sigaw. He's so insensitive. "Kapag ingay talaga, ako agad naiisip mo?"

"You're the most talkative person I've ever met. You won't stop bickering."

"It doesn't piss you off?"

"I hate silence, you know that."

"You better invite Brett, he won't stop bickering around you. I gotta go, bye." and he ended the line.

Napasapo ako sa noo dahil sa sinabi. The thought wasn't ideal for me, but yes, it's true. He is seriously a changed person after that confession! Naiirita ako sa pinagsasabi niya, knowing that I easily fall into words. Sometimes, gusto ko na lang lagyan ng duct tape 'yung bibig niya sa tuwing ipinapaalala niya sa aking may gusto siya sa 'kin.

Like... boy, you can't just force yourself to a girl that is still broke. That'll make you a rebound. I... just hope he will realize what he is doing.

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Brett Anderson

Hey, can you come over?
Sent.

I'm in the library.
Sent.

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I didn't have a choice. I didn't have any other person to ask. And besides, we're still friends. I hope that we can still work this out and he will come back to his senses.

Bagot na bagot lang akong nakatitig sa message na sinend ko na hanggang ngayon ay wala pa ring reply. As much as gusto ko pang mag-aral, nababagot ako dahil sa katahimikan. I just can't stand my saliva getting stuck in my mouth for many hours, can you blame me?

Nang wala pa ring reply si Brett, inayos ko na ang mga gamit ko at nagsimulang maglakad palabas ng library. Gutom na ako, mula tanghali pa ako nagbabasa rito.