NOT A HAPPY ENDING ANYMORE

15- A minute with Nate

As i opened my eyes i regret it instantly. Nate is sitting beside me when the mere fact is that Seph was the one i remember with last night.

Tss. That guy wala talaga siyang pakialam sakin. Wait why do i sound so desperate for him to notice me?

Kasalanan lang to ng pagkakabagsak ko o pagkahimatay ko for sure i said to myself. Yeah that's it.

"Oh my Ghad! You scared the shit out of me" Nate said.

Oh great! I wanted to punch this a*shole. Such a pity Im afraid her frustrated mother will sue me.

"You dont even care and stop acting like one" I said in a very cold way that every person will hear can shiver.

Yep! Im that angry to him. My feelings will not change and I think it will remain forever.

"I care it's the truth. And please can i talk to you atleast a minute?" He asked.

Oh great! Really really great! Im a bit of pissed right now because of the fact he's being this bossy with me. How dare him?

"Dont be such a kid! Were talking now. Anong tawag mo dito bulungan?" I asked.

"Please just a minute. I want to bid my goodbye" He said.

"Kailangan pa non? Diba pwedeng mawala ka na lang at wag mo ng guluhin ang buhay ko? YOU DONT DESERVE GOODBYES" I said. Notice sarcasm there.

"I got this particular girl pregnant" He said.

"Good for you! Karma's a bitch huh" I said approvingly.

Kung akala nya apektado pa ko well not anymore. One thing i learn is that there's no permanent in life there comes to a certain point na mawawalan ka ng pagasa, yung mapapagod ka, yung feeling na pakakawalan mo na lang kasi alam mo na sa sarili mo na wala ng intensity. Wala ng heartbeat kumbaga. Naka move-on na ko that's reality.

"Im sorry for all i've done. Believe me minahal kita at minamahal parin hanggang ngayon but i will not pursue you this time. Gusto kong matama ang pagkakamali ko. I want to change everything. Sorry if you caught me kissing Drea. Im forced and drunk that night. My cousins got me drunk. Im sorry" He said.

Im shocked! Didnt know this coming. Drea is the bitch i saw few years ago. Siya ang dahilan ng break up namin. Pero parang di pa rin kapanipaniwala.

"I play with Drea. I used her she is my play time. But then i broke her heart because it was still pounding for you not for her neither the girls in the club nor the girl i got pregnant. Because none of them is you. Hindi sila ikaw para mahalin ko. Hindi sila si Anikka hindi sila" He said as tears starts to stream down his face.

The urge of me to hug him is killing me. Now i know and for sure that this a*shole is suffering too.

"Nate.." I wiped his tears. Such a gay but I admit Im inlove with this boy once.

"Im happy for you. Siguro lang talaga hindi tayo ang end game. Hindi tayo ang happy ending at di rin ako happy ending. Im such a gay, i cried infront of the lady i love" he said.

"Yep your gay admit that. But seriously thank you for loving me unconditionally. You know hirap din ako sa pag move on sayo noon. Your my first love fyi. But thanks for the mem'ries ill keep 'em thats a pinky promise" I said as i smile.

The feeling of that, masarap sa pakiramdam. Knowing that i finally let go my hurts and sorrow from Nate.

"You never changed. The fact that you become a lady and much braver now. Yun lang ang nabago but the way you smile? Its genuine only for those people who are well deserved sees that" He said.

I nod. And he deserves it.

"Can you tell me the whole story that happened years ago?" I asked him.

He nod. I sighed letting him to start.

"The day i texted you nagkaayaan kaming magpipinsan because its dec. 24 right? Were drunk then i found Drea grinding her body to a boy. Ofcourse nagalit ako sino ba namang matinong lalaki ang papayag na mabastos yung bestfriend ng girlfriend niya diba? Hinatak ko siya palabas ng club pinapasok sa kotse ko. He keeps on saying the word "I hate my life. I hate you" kaya naman i pity her. Di ko alam kung san siya dadalhin kaya napagpasyahan kong sainyo nalang tutal dati dun siya nakatira. Kaso nung malapit na kami sa inyo pinahinto nya yung kotse sabi niya nasusuka daw siya kaya hininto ko dun sa may park at pinagbuksan siya ng pinto. Kaso nagulat ako ng hinalikan niya ko. I tried to push her kaso nadadala din ako. Im an a*shole i know. Sorry i regret that" He said.

I know its true i feel it. I cried, funny! Im stupid na di ko siya pinagexplain. But i never regret everything.

"That's okay." I said.

"Thanks for letting me explain the whole thing. Sana makuha mo na ang hustisya sa pamilya mo"

I nod. Tama yun na lang ang hinihiling ko. Justice for my family

"Pero asan na si Drea ngayon? Tsaka pano ka napunta dito?" Sabi ko.

"Drea.. wala na kong balita sa kanya. Bat ako nandito? Sinundan kita kagabi kasi gusto na talaga kitang kausapin tapos nakita kita bigla kang bumagsak. May lalaking bumuhat sayo at dinala ka dito kaso umalis na din kani kanina. Sa opisina nyo daw." Sabi niya.

So sya pala nagdala sakin dito. Seph the arrogant guy.

"Sigurado ka bang okay kana? Wala ka bang sakit?" Hahawakan nya dapat ang noo ko kaso iniwas ko.

"I understand" sabi niya. Tumingin siya sa phone nya at saka nagpaalam na aalis na.

"Gotta go. Nagtetext na sakin si Cee gusto daw niya ng balot" sabi niya.

Natawa naman ako. Mga buntis talaga.

"Sige umalis kana baka magalit sayo yon"

He chuckled.

"Still i regret letting you go but this is the best way for us to move on. I love you babe" He said. Regret is written on his face.

"Landi mo. Umalis kana nga" I said.

"Basta friends ha? Wag mo na kong ipakaladkad ulit"

This time ako naman natawa.

"Shut up. Go away" I said.

"Easy there. " he waved his hand tsaka lumabas.

Ghad! I feel like I want to see Annie and go to mall with her.

*kring kring* *kring kring*

"Hello?"

"Where have you been Ellie? Nagaalala na ko sayo" Oh.. John

"Nahimatay ako. Andito ako sa ospital pero pauwi narin ako"

"WHAT?! are you okay? Ill fetch you. Wag kana magtake ng cab"

"Joh---"

"No buts. Wag kang makulit Ellie"

"Kay fine"

Then i end the call. I sighed feeling the relieve im with right now.