PLEASURING ME R-18

kabanata 35

Flashback

She keeps on groaning in pleasure as she move her body on me,grinding roughly as she holds my shoulder on tight keeping her balance when suddenly I held her wrist stopping her,causing her to stop

"Why?"she ask confused,her eyes held confusion as she stares to me

"Let's stop this Janelle,this ain't working" i sighed deeply,ever since I got the news that jhayvie and Isabelle got back together like nothing happened from angel,my mind totally sunk down ,I loose the hope to win her from my brother,I'm tired of waiting good knows how I tried to win her but fate won't let me. I keep on reminding my self that jhayvie suits for her and not me , maybe she's just confused that's why but fuck I couldn't accept it ,it keeps on rushing through my mind that I must win her no matter it takes ,even though I'm using jannele as a bed warmer thinking it might be Isabelle

"Why?"her voice broke down ,shuttering ,she gasp as she gathers all her breath to faced me as she slowly wipe her tears rolling down to her cheeks,I bet she knows the answers

"You already knew Janelle,you know i can't loved you,you know I can't look at you the way I look isabelle.fuck it,I knew I'm screwed up then you came now I'm totally fucked up,look I'm sorry for using you,sorry for everything,it's all my fault that I dragged you into my life Janelle " i look away as I tried to hide my trembling voice

"Jarred I loved you,you knew that I will accept you even though using me is only a way to resembles Isabelle back ,but I cannot leave you.use me all you want as long as your happy jarred,I don't mind because your happiness matters to me jarred,dragging me into your mess up life won't matters as long as I'm with you I'm happy"I averted my gaze as she said that line,I don't fucking deserve her,she deserves someone else better than me,she knew I can't loved her back but she stays on my side even though I hurt her a lot,I know that hiding the pain that your love causes are so much to bear,it so selfish of me if I will make her stay but I already made up my mind,I'm planning to let her go that's why I gently push me making her off my lap

"Get dressed and leave me alone"I said as I search my shirt and putting it on ,I handed her clothes while not looking at her

When she already dressed up she open for the door then she silently leave not looking back as she continued walking in the middle of the street,seeing her walk away making me feels guilty,i am guilty for dragging her into my life,if I wouldn'nt do that, her life would be normal as if she never meet me

I shook my head as I manouvered my car away.while driving I noticed someone's tailing me ,some red porch car as I turn my wheel to right ,but it's still following me,I couldn't see the latter because it's tinted and it's way to dark
.I bit my lips in annoyance

Who the fuck could it be ?

That question always repeating in my head like it's a fucking broken record
.I sighed in annoyance as I quickly stoped my car Midway as I stomp my feet on the ground the latter comes off waving a gun in his hand

Before I even thinking about going back into the car ,the latter shoot the ground near to me making my body jolt in fear.he smiled at me as he makes his way towards to me

"Come with me if you don't wanna die" he treathened me as he pointed his gun on my nape,he pushed me to enter his car but I wouldn't budge
"Move you idiot"he said clearly annoyed ,I faced him and give him a punch on his face causing him off guard ,I held his wrist to give it a blow when he caught my hand turning it sideways as I feel the pain that slowly engulf my body.he held my neck as he pointed his gun on my temple "move or I kill you"then he pushed me in the shotgun seat and the latter in the driver seat as he wake the engines up then drove away,silence engulf the whole minute as I endure the pain in my arm making me hurl in pain