A Promise of a Lifetime

promise

n o t e : I wasn't planning to write anything about this manga but when I read the last chapter I ended up writing this. It was just too heartbreaking for me. I actually cried for hours! This oneshot is for those, who like me, needs a proper closure.

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Where am I? All I could see is cars and an ambulance. There are too many people crowded in one area, it peeked my interest so I decided to go and check too.

"Bum"

I looked around, I thought I just heard Sangwoo. I walked closer to the crowd of people.

"Bum"

There it is again. I looked for him but I couldn't find Sangwoo anywhere. I don't even know if I will recognize him, I can't remember what he looks like anymore. His face is blurred, too blurred in my mind that I can't recall or remember him anymore.

"Bum"

Another one. It goes on and on. Someone is calling for my name and I am sure that it is Sangwoo. Even though I keep looking for him I can't find him.

I made my way into the crowd of people and I saw a man being carried away by the stretcher. His body was already covered by the cloth so I wasn't able to see his face. Blood was all over the streets, but unlike some people, I'm used to it already thanks to Sangwoo.

"Bum"

There it is again. I looked around once more but I just can't find him.

"Bum"

I looked over and I saw someone looking at the ambulance. He was wearing a gray jacket with his hoodie so I wasn't able to see his face, but I know. I know for sure that its Sangwoo.

"Bum" he mumbled while looking at the ambulance doors closing.

"Sangwoo!" I shouted and he looked back.

A tear rolled down my eye once I saw his face. I finally remember what Sangwoo looks like. I already remember.

The background changed and we were no longer in the streets. We we're surrounded by a pure white abyss. There is no one else here but me and Sangwoo.

"Bum! You're here." Sangwoo said. His voice sounds scared. He sounds lonely. "I thought I'll never see you again."

When he said those words I ran as fast as I can towards him and hugged him so tight. Being able to hug him brought many emotions–happiness, sadness, pain, love, and security. Being able to see him and touch him like this, its like I am living a dream.

"I'm sorry Sangwoo. If only I'd been  brave enough to borrow money for the taxi. . .If only I hadn't been so scared."

"Hey, its nothing." he said as he cupped my face. "Whats important is you kept your promise."

"What promise?"

"That you'll come after me after I die."

Then it hit me, I was the one being rolled to the ambulance? I remember chasing after Sangwoo in the middle of the streets then the lights changed from green to red.

"Bum?" he called out.

"I'm sorry Sangwoo." I cried out again.

"She was right, I did die in the most painful way. I wish you were there Bum. It was lonely, I got scared."

"I'm sorry. I'm sorry." I cried out and hugged him once more. "I was going to visit you but I got lost and. . ."

"Shhh Its fine. Stop making excuses already." he said calming me down. His words just made me tear up more.

I thought I was strong enoung to move on, to live a better life. But here I am, still chasing after Oh Sangwoo even in the afterlife. The tears just won't stop falling.

"Don't cry and stay with me here okay? I am your husband right?" he said holding my waist supporting my legs that were already trembling.

If only he had said those words earlier. I could've hugged him more. I could have told him more. I could have held his had. I could have stayed by his side for a longer time. We could have lived a better life. But now, seeing where we ended up, I know this is the end. I know we can't go back anymore.

Being with Sangwoo was like riding rides in a theme park. There were so many varieties. There is tge Sangwoo that is scary, the Sangwoo that is mad, the Sangwoo that is like a child, and the Sangwoo that cares for me. When I entered his house as a stalker I didn't knew things would end up like this. I didn't know what I had signed up for.

When I begged for him to spare my life I thought the only thing I had to do was obey his orders, play out the roles he wanted ne to portray, then find my chanve to escape. But the longer I stay in his house something just changed. I fell for him. The more I get to know things about him no one else had. I never thought I would be able to feel like this.

"Bum?" he asked confused again.

I just stared at his face then smiled. I never regretted anything I did. I never regretted stalking him, entering his house, staying, begging him, and loving him.

"I love you Oh Sangwoo."

He just stared at me then locked eyes with me. I got scared. Did I say something wrong? Did he not like it? I'm scared we will treat each other differently again.

"I love you too Yoon Bum." hearing those words made me smile despite of all the tears running through my face.
I burried my face into his chest and hugged him tightly again.

"Are you still crying?" his voice was shaky and I could hear his shallow breathing.

"Are you also crying?" I asked but he just higged me back.

"Yoon Bum."

"Hmm?"

"Never leave me again, ok?"

"Ok."

"Promise me? Bum?"

"I promise."

Even after death in this life and on to our next lives I will always look for you. I will chase you, and I will still keep stalking you.

That is a promise of a lifetime.

—END—