This was supposed to be a great summer. It was supposed to be ours.
To be the couple we were meant to be. The couple many strive to be.
I've graduated without you by my side
I've become an adult without you by my side.
But instead of finding a job,
Or filling out applications for colleges
I'm standing here in your old room crying.
Crying because i had a plan to save you.
I was supposed to be your knight in shining armor.
If you had just hung on a little longer
Maybe just maybe you could have seen how life was worth living for.
Some nights i wake up in a cold sweat
Remembering that night
The night I got a call no one wants to get
I remember your mother's wails
I remember your father's silence
I remember me running
Running
Running
Running
Till my lungs were burning, begging me to stop
But I couldn't stop
I couldn't even if I wanted to.
My muscles aching
But I just could not stop running.
It wasn't real
None of it was
You where still here
I knew you where
This was just a dumb game
Any moment now you'll jump out and yell "gotcha!"
But it never happened
It just didn't happen....
When I realized that I failed you
I crumpled to the ground in defeat
Smashing my fist into the ground
Begging whatever god was out there to return you to me
The funeral was on a weekend
Your casket was a dark and wooden
It wasn't opened to viewing
I felt numb, I was on autopilot
I haven't cried since I found out
I haven't even said your name aloud
I'm just living day by day in a daze
Everyday blurred together
I wasn't living anymore
I was just here
