Pain

I don't care what you say

"But I'm fine!" Astre shouted the day he was supposed to be leaving for ᕼEᒪᒪ— uhm, I mean, the mental institution.... It was supposed to help the mentally ill, psychiatrically insane, and those with mental disorders, such as the one he and Alois Trancy were diagnosed with... Anorexia Nervosa and Bulimia.

Everyone was there to see him off- except for the Trancy servants- who were with Alois Trancy in the hospital. Except for Claude, he was packing for the Bahamas. "It will be good for you, alright, brother?" Ciel said, pushing his little brother into the carriage where Tanaka would be taking them to the mental hospital. Alois was most likely already there. Now it was Astre's turn. "Listen, brother, I..." He paused for a moment, looking into his brothers single blue eye, and pale, blotchy, malnourished frame. "..." He knew this was all his fault. But could not bring himself to find the correct words to say to his dying brother.

Not one person in the either manors blamed Astre for what happened to Alois. Not Claude, not Sebastian, not Hannah, not the triplets, nobody. Everyone blamed Ciel. The ones closer to the situation- such as Finny, Bard, Mey-Rin, Tanaka, Pluto and Snake -also partially blamed Sebastian. But Ciel knew that if he hadn't started it, Sebastian wouldn't have followed. It was all Ciel's fault.

And yet, he had no clue how to fix it. Not one single idea. Everyone said to be nice, tell him to eat more, and explain to him how thin and sick he was... but Ciel knew his brother better than them. He knew this was a battle no one would win. "...Try to be good, alright, little brother?" He said with his signature smile, gaining a roll of the eyes from his little brother. "He truly is my LITTLE brother now... weighs so much less than me... even when we hug, I feel very little of my brother, and very much bone. Bones. That's all he and the Trancy kid are now. Just a bunch of bones because of me." Ciel thought, and he was right.

He watched the carriage take his brother away, and couldn't help but frown, oh how much he hated what was happening- and how powerless he felt against it. Watching the two people he loved most in the living world suffer something he had never even heard about until the day his brother threw out his dinner. And when Tanaka came back, all could see the sad expression on his face.

"... Is my brother going to get better?" Ciel asked Tanaka the moment he saw that expression. Tanaka did not respond to the small child.

"Tanaka, answer me! Is brother going to be okay? And what of the Trancy kid, is he alright? Are they taking good care of him- oh, I know he is a fragile one."

No matter how much he spoke, Tanaka just looked the ground sadly.

"... I order you to speak to me!!" Ciel then shouted, losing his temper, as he pulled on Tanaka's sleeve. And it seemed everyone in the manor was also anxiously awaiting Tanaka's words. Even Sebastian's crimson eyes gazed on the elder man with impatience.

"... ... ... I do not know, my lord. I just don't know." He said, and his words made the short child freeze. It seemed the whole room went quiet, and cold, frozen by the words of the elderly man.

Sebastian began screaming, shouting that THAT was the best he could offer as an explanation for how HIS soul was fairing- though everyone in the manor knew Astre was far more than simply a soul to Sebastian. And far more than a master to all of them there. He was a friend- no, family. And soon all of the other servants began talking and talking, Pluto howled and woofed and whimpered sadly- everyone was stressed, saddened, and hurt over the youngest blue-haired boy. And all were very vocal about it.

All except Ciel Phantomhive.

"..." Ciel did not speak for a long moment, as he finally released Tanaka and looked down, and looked to the porcelain floor. Then, finally, a shadow cast over his face. "... Get out of my sight. All of you." He stated, voice barely above that of a whisper. And they all did so immediately.