Drowned

Prologue

" It was never easy to hold onto something that can easily break apart. Our relationship is not right from the beginning, the moment you realize my feelings, I wonder if the string which connects us will be severed?"

                                         - Zarina Heraiz Garcia

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“Rina” tapik sa aking pisngi ang nagpagising sa aking pagkatulog.

How long have I been sleeping? Di ko man lang namalayan. Malamang Rina, tulog ka nga diba? I mentally slapped my forehead, dahil kung ano-ano na ang naiisip ko.

“Mom? What time is it?” I asked my Mom still yawning and rolled unto my bed.

“It’s nearly evening sweetie, nakatulog ka na naman habang nagbabasa. It’s not good for your eyes iha...”

  Inaayos at nilalagay ni mommy ang mga libro sa shelves na nagkakalat sa kama ko.

I sat on my bed and pouted cutely at Mom, it always work this way, my charm is irresistable.

“Sorry na Mommy...” I said while rubbing my eyes, haysst gusto ko pang matulog.

“You’re saying sorry, pero gagawin mo pa rin naman. Just know how to limit yourself from reading sweetie, hindi lahat ng oras na lang na magbabasa ka, do you understand young lady?” she said while sternly looking at me.

I avoided her eyes and look unto the floor instead. Kapag ganito na kasi si mommy, tumitiklop na ako. She’s a kind mother, but she’s definitely scary when she’s mad. Kahit naman kasi makulit ako at spoiled, takot pa rin ako sa kanila ni Daddy.

Well...mas malala nga lang kay Mommy.

“Sorry po ulit Mommy, naiintindihan ko po.” I bit my lip and looked at her guiltily.

She sighed and walk towards where I am, she carressed my hair and kissed the top of my head.

She smiled at me sweetly, and that calms me.

“ Forgiven, but make sure not to do it again, okay?” Mabilis akong tumango sa kanya.

Kareen Montez- Garcia, a well- known Architect in the Philippines and Internationally. A lot of people admires and praises her for her achievements. She was also branded as kind, beautiful and intelligent woman but some fear her intimidating aura.

She is a definition of perfection, but Mom being herself told me that she is not perfect at all, because like everyone else, she is also flawed. And that’s what I admired about her, she holds her grounds and never belittle anyone else. A kind of woman that I want to be. Although I may appear like her in public, but I'm quite a bit different when you get to know me personally.

Mom left my room after  reminding me to go downstairs pagkatapos ayusin ang sarili ko, sinabihan ba naman  akong witch kasi parang pugad ng ibon ang buhok ko.

Syempre ganon talaga yon, alangan naman gigising ako na nakaayos na ang buhok ko? Di pa naman straight to, may pagkakulot kasi and it’s naturally auburn, mana kay Daddy.

I look at my self on the vanity mirror. Despite how everyone compliments my beauty, hindi ko pa rin maiwasan ang ma-insecure.

At some point in our life, there will always be that something which we wish to have but couldn't. It's not because we don't work hard enough to attain it but because it was never meant for us.