My Guardian Angel (Angel!Link x Religious!Reader Oneshots) PART 2

I Am An Aromantic

Note: 'Aromantic' means has no experiences in romantic attraction. A person who lacks interest in desire or romantic relationships.

Your POV

I am single and I feel uncertain about this kind of relationship that I'm not really interested in such. I haven't got any experiences when it comes to love. I probably don't think I can do this. And I'm not quite sure how to manage this situation. It's just....plain boring.

On second thought, I've never got the chance to say something towards the person who I liked. I just feel a little nervous. In my opinion, people think that I'm some kind of aromantic. A person who's not ready for romance and I have a lot of lacking.

I'm such a loser to love. Too cooped up, close-minded and totally not in a good mood. I started to become philophobic. Afraid of emotional attachment, sexual thoughts, losing my own virginity like I had a painful stomachache or it feels like vomiting. 😵😵 💫💫

I thought love was supposed to make me happy but I'm not. It didn't help and it doesn't work. I can't get ahold of my emotions any minute. I don't like being outdoors. I want to stay at home so that no one will disrupt my quiet solitude.

That's why I hate going outside. What? Am I supposed to have an imaginary boyfriend or a fictional crush who used to be my lover? It's just not fair. It gets me even sadder and lonelier when I could think of that everyday. Dreams don't exactly come true, merely just a hallucinating illusion.

Can anyone tell me what love is? Well, none of the above. Not a simple straight answer. Is this a pretty funny story? Is that some kind of a joke? I don't need a love life. All I ever wanted is to become unhappy and joyful. Mostly bad luck full of struggle and anguish. 😠😠 💔💔

Note: A reference in Nickelodeon's 'Avatar The Last Airbender'. In the episode 'The Fortuneteller' (Book One: Water) when Sokka angrily kicks a rock but it hits him directly towards the back of his head. Ouch! And of course, he doesn't have any fortunes at all.

I imagine love is nothing but a very poisonous venom of a rattlesnake. The love potion is now filled with adultery. What's inside is a load of female moans which it came from a porn video. Too loud and distracting that made my ears bleed. 🐍🐍 🎥🎥 📹📹

The box of chocolates have turned into spiky urchins and bouquet of flowers transformed into plant eaters; a mouth with jagged teeth of a shark. Because love is chaotic. Only fights and broke up....it made me sick. I'm still not ready for this. I mean, how am I going to impress a suitor for me? Nothing...

Being humiliated or embarassed. A stalker of epic fail. Acting like a spoiled brat or bawl out loud like a 5-year old child by ripping a teddy bear's head, completely torned to shreds. Got drunk by a sharp tranquilizer instead of a drug pill. 💉💉 💊💊

I always hated all of it. Love is my only weakness, despite the fact that I'm NOT a romantic type of person. What is this health crap? That's completely arrogant and brutal. I've got long enough to get over this. I feel a total dislike for love.

Love hurts whether if it's right or wrong. Everything is a mess I've made very badly. I got to admit it....I never experience romance yet. I'll never find it in time. I guess it will take a miracle to find me a perfect suitor. I knew it...

So, what am I going to do now? I am hopeless. Nothing came out right. I was laying down on my bed while I stared at the ceiling, thinking of a way to find the true meaning about love. I sighed desperately, a sad emotionless look on my face and my heart dropped.

I toss and turn, adjust my position after I could stare into the window and saw a clear blue sky. I can see a bright light coming out of nowhere as I reached out for my hand slowly, my eyes started to form into fresh tears. Was it just only a firefly or a 'will-of-the-wisp'?