A World That Is You (HunHan)

prologue//what if

Note: Shixun is Sehun.

I'm running away even though I have nowhere to go.

I've been wishing to die by your hands, but why do I feel afraid all of a sudden? After years of clashing swords with you, why am I tired of it just now?

Is it because you look so eager to kill me?

I stop by the cliff where we used to chill, but now it's just a dead end. Now there's only you and me, Shixun. Panting heavily, sweating profusely, and glaring intensely toward each other.

My betrayal must have hurt you so much. You must be disgusted of me after killing all those people. You must be tired of trying to pull me out of the dark. That's right, you must have given up on me, just as I am giving up on myself.

"I'm sorry," I say out of the blue. I don't want this to be my last words to you, but why does it feel like I'll never see you again?

Why do I feel my tears falling all of a sudden?

Why do I feel so tired of running all of a sudden?

Why can't I just continue to be heartless like how everyone sees me? Why am I getting emotional just by looking at you right now?

And why are you looking at me like that? Why are you staring at me as if you haven't really given up on me?

I'm hurt. I don't want to feel this way. Why can't you just hate me with all your heart? Why can't you get mad at me? If you're like this to me, how am I supposed to hate you, Shixun-ah?

Out of nowhere, a flying arrow hits me. Perhaps, one of the guards who followed us here couldn't wait to kill me.

I feel pain as the arrow strikes me in the heart, but the pain is not as painful as the thought of our memories together, turning into dust. Memories that we can never go back to. Memories that used to be beautiful. Memories that will scar us forever.

"Luhan-ah!!!" I hear you call out my name. I see you reaching out for my hand as my body drops and falls off the cliff...

Falling, falling, falling.

I guess I won't die by your hands after all. But isn't it funny how fate decided to give me such a short life?

I haven't even confessed my truth to you yet.

Shixun-ah...

If you could erase a bad memory, would it be me?

If you have to choose, would you rather live in a world where I am your enemy, or a world without me at all?

If I die, what would you do?

Shixun-ah...

I don't know if I want to erase you or keep you in my memories. You made me the happiest, but you also made me the saddest. What do I do?

If I die, would I be in heaven or in hell?

Wherever the wind takes me, will I still remember you or not?