I stood there as Jungkook explained what had happened. Everything felt surreal to me. I still didn't understand how I could let everything happen. There was a brief instant of relief when we entered the house followed by anxious energy as everyone realized Jimin wasn't back.
I just didn't get it. Why Tae? What was so special about him?
I could feel everyone panicking as the story unfolded. I just wasn't registering anything. I just stood there. It felt like everything was happening to me but I was losing control over everything.
"Gray, let's talk," Tae said as he took my wrist to pull me towards the kitchen. I let go of Jungkook's hand that I hadn't even realized was holding. He briefly nodded in encouragement.
It was dark with the only light coming from the dining room.
"Who are you?"
I just looked at him surprised. He looked angry and really worried, but his voice was level.
"I am not dumb, you know. I should know you. I know Moonbyul and your father. You know my grandfather. And our houses are practically next to each other. I know everything except you."
I could hear the basement going silent. The tone of conversation was quite sombre before but now everything was quiet. "I just went to college at an early age, Tae. You just don't remember me." It felt like ages since I had said a word. It came out hoarse and sad.
"Did you ask?"
"Huh?"
"Did you ask me when you took my memory?"
I shook my head.
"Those were my memories!" He was furious. "You can't even imagine how hard it was for me not to have them." He struggled to put words to the emptiness. But I did. I knew how hard it was to feel that empty. "What is the key?"
"Huh?"
"The key to the memory charm."
"I burned it."
"What?"
"It was mine and father's signatures, together. I burned it." He looked so broken.
I sighed. "You were sick. You were dying, Tae. I was killing you and I didn't know how. And you wouldn't tell me. You wouldn't tell me anything." I could feel my voice reverberating through me, reminding me of how helpless I felt then.
"I am sorry. I am so sorry." I didn't know what I wanted to tell him. I just lost track of everything in my mind.
"I need fresh air," he said, moving away.
"Don't go outside. Not alone." I warned him. "I'll leave," I added.
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Fanfiction"Why does everyone keep saying that? How isn't it me when I did it? I thought it. With my own brain and did it," I shouted. " And I still can sense the thought, the thought of wanting to kill you." He just kindly looked back at me and said, "Then t...
