“Nite, I’m marrying Jasmine tomorrow. This? This is wrong!”
Jacob said after I unbuckled his pants. We were panting and the smell of our sweat was mixing in the hotel room I booked for this night. My height was almost the same as his so when I looked up to see his face, I saw doubt and uneasiness. I smiled at him bitterly.
“Please Jac, just one last time and I’ll leave your life completely.”
I didn’t let him talk again. I crushed his lips with mine and kissed him hungrily. He tightly held my shoulders and tried to push me away, but I didn’t let him. I put my right hand on his nape to deepen the kiss. I kissed him passionately like my life depended on him because I knew that he’s not mine anymore. I teasingly bit his lower lip and gently licked it afterwards. At first, he’s not responding to my kiss, but slowly, his grip on my shoulder became weaker and it’s like a cue for me to continue.
After a couple of seconds, he groaned and started moving his lips mimicking the movement of my lips. His tongue invaded my mouth to own every bit of it and that’s when I lose my control. It was like we’re following the rhythm of a forbidden song while kissing each other passionately, while our tongue battled each other. Yes, I know from the very start that the relationship we have or should I say we had was unacceptable but what can I do? I deeply and hardly fell in love with a man. Maybe it's my punishment for liking a person with the same gender. But why do I need to feel this pain? All I did was to love.
“Nite..…”
He whispered in front of me. Our faces were still an inch away from each other. I didn’t respond and just put my left hand on top of his bulging maleness and moved it up and down slowly. That made him close his eyes and his head fell back.
“F-faster…”
It may be unintentional but the way he said it was so sexy and that made me feel the tingling sensation spreading from my stomach to the thing in between my thighs.
I obediently obliged to his request and tilted my head and leaned down to have a better access to his neck. I sucked on it and wished that it will leave a mark. My eyes were close as I continued to lap and nip his neck and sucked it again. His moans and groans were music to my ears.
I looked up again to see his face. His face was flushed with lust. His hair was disheveled and his lips were slightly parted.
I felt like my body was burning with uncontrollable desire and I needed to release it. I let my tongue trace the curve of his neck until I reached his collarbone.
I began to unbutton his polo and that’s when I felt his body went rigid and unmoving for some time and it shocked me when he pushed me so hard. I lost my balance and I fell on the floor. I looked up and saw him looking down on me. Anger and regret were visible in his eyes or was it just me imagining things.
But the way he gazed down at me was a dagger piercing every part of my heart and I felt like being suffocated.
“W-why did you do that?”
My voice trembled. I didn’t know what caused more pain to me. The pain from the strong impact on my butt when he pushed me or the thought that he really pushed me without care at all. Maybe the latter.
“Nite I’m sorry. I know this is hard for you but try to understand me. I don’t love you anymore. Please let me go.”
My heart was badly aching while looking intently at him. My throat went dry and a lone tear fell on my cheeks. I saw his face soften a bit but it immediately disappeared. I believed that he was trying so hard to suppress it so I held his hand and kneeled in front of him.
