It's every single night when the insomnia kicks in and I just can't get to sleep. My brain seems to want to think of the most heart aching things the most hurtful, evil people in my life. It seems to just take me back to the most unexplainably depressing times.
People bring up the subject of it and say it 'could' have drove someone to suicidal thoughts or the real thing. They are wrong, it did. There were only a few pathetic attempts.
If those attempts worked, a few people would have been mortified. But most would think 'stupid girl, silly girl'.
