At the end of it all the need of acceptance is still there
To feel comfortable in your own skin
To make great accomplishments
And to make everyone proud
But to think youre not good enough
To think your worthless
Not valuable
Your pointless
Is a relation no one but you can feel
Wondering if your worth living
To be scared of death
Yet accepting it
To jump off
Slit it
Drink it
take it or live;
which choice to make
no idea?
What to do?
I dont know that too
They think your faking
But how can you fake pain
Can you feel it for me?
No, you cant
So please dont tell me Im faking it
You want to know whats faking
Waking up every day smiling and laughing in your faces
To let YOU think Im ok
To let you worry about your problems and not me
I dont know what I want
Whether I want to live or to die
And thats a fine line
I am a complicated person
You dont know me
And I dont know you
I dont like being around people
Even though it seems I do
But thats where the term fake it till you male it come in
Its all an act
Just by saying that Im playing a role of a hypocrite
To smile in your face when Im breaking inside
I dont know what to do
Ive said that about a thousand time
Some say Im lucky I am in some aspects
But who isnt?
So, dont pull the ungrateful card
Cause your ungrateful too
Your no saint so doesnt judge
I said I want to be alone and I dont like myself
Or the people around me
Dont tell me who dont have it please dont
Do you know what you have?
Hope you do
Cause you have something someone out there want too
And dont tell me this is white people crap
You think black people dont have emotions
That we dont have hearts
The only difference is that where strong
We try to fight our problems
For thats what we have been doing for years
Fighting for survival
Fighting for equality
Black and white are different
We dont share the same culture
But we both feel pain
Different but pain
They cant feel our pain
And we cant feel theirs
So, you dont tell me you feel my pain
Cause you dont
Please dont tell me you know me
Cause you dont
Please dont tell me you understand
Cause you dont
And YOU dont judge me
Cause your no different
Youre not perfect neither am I
Some seen me cry but never cared
Never gave support
So, when I die dont cry and dont come apologize
So, when you see me with my pain
Remember it was all mine.
