She's Never Okay

Intro

   Her name is Xena Wish. Her hair flows, with beautiful, luscious, light brown waves and her eyes of a perfect emerald green and beautiful, flawless skin. She always looked gorgeous but she could never see it because of what everyone else said. She was perfect to her best friend, Ruth Mist. They've been friends for almost 10 years and they're basically the same person in two different bodies. They basically raised each other. Ruth had long beautifully straight, dark brown hair and her eyes were the same. Neither of them had perfect smiles or anything but to each other, they were perfect for each other(as friends) and they knew their friendship was forever.

 Xena lays on her bed, feeling worthless. Wanting to pick up her phone and check whats going on but she can't stand the hate she gets 24/7. She's afraid to go outside and face the world for what it is. She has one true friend but don't wanna put in effort to go see her but at the same time, doesn't want to lose her. She's failing school because she rarely goes and when she does, it's never good. Everyday that Xena went to school, she'd get pushed down the stairs, hit, kicked or called names and made fun of because of who she was. She's Bisexual and acts like a guy a lot. She loves being one of the guys because they're less drama and usually fun to be around unlike the plastics(group of girls that make fun of everyone they think is less than them and they look really fake) all over the school. 

 Everyday she cries herself to sleep, thinking she shouldn't be here, she's worthless, ugly, scary, fat, a whore and so much more. She thinks so low of herself and to her, the only way to get rid of it is by painting on her arms and legs with a blade. She says the blood tells her she's still living. She tells herself everyday "You can't feel anything if you're dead." It's horrible but she can't help but feel that way.

 Life at home is hell as well. Her mom's always depressed and yelling at her and her dad left when she was barely 2 years old. She's the youngest of 4 children. She's 16. Her older brother Jace is 19, Her second oldest sister, Sam, is 21 and her oldest sister, Ashleah, is 24. Being the youngest sucked because everything that the others got, she got worse. It's bad enough she has anxiety, depression, attachment disorder, eating disorder, and so much more that is shitty to deal with but she can't do much about it. 

 Suddenly, She meets someone that changed her viewpoint on life and makes he happier in many ways and becomes more confident. He completely changes her and she believes things that she never thought she would but the only problem is he's too far away. She lives in Canada, New Brunswick but he lives in Los Angles, California. He makes an effort and he moves to her hometown but she doesn't know till he randomly shows up at her door. 

~Ending of the intro~
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