Negligent ∞ Jikook

스물 셋 ∞ Jimin

[Jimin = Jungkook's boyfriend]

— Jungkook's POV —

         I slowly opened my sleepy eyes and rubbed them with my fists. I sat up on my hospital bed and smiled softly as I saw Jimin sleeping on his own bed. I then called Miri, who was awake as well, to sit on my lap and glanced at the clock on the wall.

Ah, it's still 5am, but I felt like I had the best amount of sleep in my entire life! Not wanting to disturb Jimin from his slumber, I adjusted my pillow and sat up on my bed so that I could admire the sunrise from the window beside my bed.

This morning's sunrise was a breathtaking display of radiant colours. Bright streaks of red, pink, and orange slowly overcame the dark blue and purple of the twilight sky. The sky resembled a prism; all the colours blended perfectly into each other. 

The sun itself was just peeking out of the horizon, and its brilliant rays already shined brightly and began to warm the air. I marvelled at the glistening reflection of the sun on the ocean and a thrilling feeling of awe swept over me.

It had been a week since we confessed and, to be honest, I still couldn't believe that Jimin became my boyfriend! Even thinking about it makes me flustered and a blushing mess every time!! I mean, who would've thought a guy like him would like someone like me?

As I thought back to that moment when we confessed to one another, I wondered...was I too quick to say 'yes' to him? Even though we had moments that I cherished ever so deeply, I realised he knew more about me but I knew less about him. 

I guess I really was desperate to be truly loved by someone...I want to be so confident with him and yet these old insecurities come back for one last jibe...

Before I gave in more to my thoughts, I shook my head vigorously and sighed. 'Come on, Jungkook!' I mumbled, 'we've gone through this mindset a billion times! Everyone gave their all to help me so you shouldn't waste their efforts like last time! And besides, we're getting discharged soon!'

I decided not to rely on my medication as much since I found a new aid: "singing". It had been a while since I sung which was weird because that was probably the only talent I could muster up with confidence. Anyway, without giving in much thought on how loud I might be, I began humming the melody and let my voice be heard.

We were so beautiful

We were so tragic

No other magic could ever compare

Lost myself, seventeen

Then you came, found me

No other magic could ever compare

It was true. We were both flawed and had tragic moments here and there, but he still found me and guided me whenever I lost my way to live...

There's a room

In my heart with the memories we made

Took 'em down but they're still in their frames

There's no way I could ever forget, mmm~

I'll never forget. These memories made up who I am today no matter how perfect or terrible they were...