Igsa - Drown (Kookv)

↚Prologue↛

A/N: hey, so i actually wanted to write the first ten chapters if this book and then publish it but change of plans.. so tho is the prologu.. Btw excuse my grammar.. i just hope u like it and don't cringe too much...

PS: I'll try to update as soon as possible. -S

"I hate those moments after crying, where I sit there. Emotionless."

1845..

1846..

1847..

It felt like drowning. The sound of cold drops that fell from the defect sink. Defect. Like me. The cold, disgustingly white tile walls making everything seem empty didn't bother me anymore, just like the sound of the drops... a sound that would maybe make people go insane and maybe I was. Sitting on the floor, leaning against the bathtub, head resting at the edge, staring at the white ceiling above me for... I had forgotten for how long I was sitting here already... seconds, minutes, hours.. with dried tears decorating my cheeks, sore throat from screaming my lungs out, red eyes, puffy from crying, empty. No more tears left, because all of them had been shed, no voice left to even whisper because the screams were too painful.

I forced my legs to stand even if I could collapse any moment, forcing my eyes open even if they could fall shut any moment. Moving my legs, every step echoing through the bathroom. Reaching the sink, I turned it on with trembling hands that where colder than the water that was spilling from the sink. Slowly holding my hand under it, splashing some of it into my face, drying it with the hem of my shirt since I couldn't bother- no, didn't have enough energy to get a towel.

Finally looking up into the mirror only to look right back into my dull eyes, dark circles surrounding them. It was like looking into nothing, the stars in my eyes long gone, the ones I saw as a child everytime i looked into the mirror, the smile, the smile that I used to show whenever I was extremely happy, all that was gone.. gone like it had never happened, like it was a beautiful dream and when I woke up it all slipped like sand through my fingers. Like happiness was too good to be real.

Slowly my knees felt even weaker than before, i sank down onto them still holding onto the cold sink, hoping it to give me enough support so I could hold myself upright. But eventually I as wrong and as I collapsed onto the cold tiles, my vision blurred more and more, until it finally went black and I lost consciousness.

Maybe this was finally it. Maybe it was finally over.