I Knew I Loved You (Troyler Oneshot)

I Knew I Loved You

January

I knew I loved Troye Sivan Mellet as soon as I saw him.

He worked behind the counter of the coffee shop that was across from my street. He was so beautiful, I forgot my order. He giggled and bit his lip. I asked for his number and left. I never got my coffee.

February

I knew I loved Troye Sivan Mellet as soon as I kissed him.

Our first date was sat on a cliff near the sea, just us and the sky. The stars were bright, but not as bright as his eyes. In the moonlight, they glittered as he laughed. He managed to get some chocolate on the corner of his mouth, and I kissed it off.

March

I knew I loved Troye Sivan Mellet as soon as I said "I love you."

It was our two month anniversary, and we were in a small restaurant in the countryside. There was a lump in my throat as I tried to force the words out. He ran his hand through his hair nervously, and I quickly blurted out those words. A small tear ran down his face, and he said it back.

April

I knew I loved Troye Sivan Mellet as soon as I heard him sing.

We were sat in my living room, and I had been begging for him to sing to me. I had bought a classic grand piano, and he sat down at it. "It's a work in progress, okay?" He was so nervous, but I smiled gently at him, and he started. His voice was like an angel, the sound floated throughout the apartment, filling me with warmth.

May

I knew I loved Troye Sivan Mellet as soon as he moved in with me.

We had talked about it for ages, and he finally decided to give in the notice for his apartment. We spent the whole day unpacking his boxes, trying to find a place for his mic and sound system. Whenever I complained, he threw clothes or music sheets at me, or occasionally hairspray.

June

I knew I loved Troye Sivan Mellet as soon as he met my mom.

We went out for lunch, all three of us, and Troye just hit it off with her straight away. She told embarrassing stories about me, and as I blushed, Troye giggled and burrowed into my side. Mom loved him, and at the end of the night, she whispered in my ear, "Keep him." Funnily enough, I was planning to.

July

I knew I loved Troye Sivan Mellet as soon as I proposed.

I had taken him to the cliff where we'd had our first date. He looked so good in his white t-shirt and maroon skinny jeans. He was busy staring into space when I got on one knee. I told him how much he meant to me, how I'd never loved anyone as much as I loved him, and how I wouldn't ever be able to love someone like I loved him, because I had given my heart to him. He cried as is like, and he cried as I slipped the ring on his finger.

August

I knew I loved Troye Sivan Mellet as soon as we got married.

We couldn't afford a big ceremony, but instead we stood in a small but pretty building near our cliff, with our parents, our friends and everyone who meant anything to us. We recited our vows, and we both shed tears and we kissed as a married couple for the first time.

September

I knew I loved Troye Sivan Mellet as soon as he held our daughter.

We had decided to adopt a young child from the city's orphanage, and as soon as we got there, we found our daughter. She lay there, sleeping, only two months old. Troye cradled her in his arms, and kissed her tiny forehead. We signed the papers that day, and within a week, we tucked Hayleigh Oakley into her crib in our room.

October

I knew I loved Troye Sivan Mellet as soon as he released his first song.

He'd received his record deal at the beginning of the year, and Happy Little Pill was released on the 4th of October. It went to number one in over 30 countries, and Troye was completely overwhelmed with how fast he'd risen to stardom. I was so proud of him, and even Hayleigh seemed to recognise that something major had happened, as every time she saw him, she would clap her little hands.

November

I knew I loved Troye Sivan Mellet as soon as he told me how lucky he was.

We had just come back from taking Hayleigh to the park, and after she had settled and fallen asleep, we had gone to snuggle on the couch. He cried into my shoulder, sobbing about how grateful he was, and how I was the most important person in the world, and how he would never leave me. We stayed in each other's arms until the sun rose.

December

I knew I loved Troye Sivan Mellet as soon as I lost him.

It shouldn't have happened. He was just walking; the truck came out of nowhere. I couldn't blame the driver. He'd had a heart attack at the wheel. Troye never stood a chance, but that didn't mean that it didn't hurt, because it did. My entire life crumbled when that police officer called me, and I fell to my knees. Troye was gone.

The funeral was the worst day of my life. As my husband, beautiful, talented Troye was lowered into the ground, I wept for him. I wept for Hayleigh, who wept even though she didn't know why she was weeping. I didn't really know either. He said he'd never leave me.

June

I knew I loved Troye Sivan Mellet as soon as I let him go.

"He's not you, Troye. He could never be you. He cares though, and he knows that I can't ever care for him as much as I did for you, because I gave you everything, every single piece of my being, I gave to you. Hayleigh likes him, and he's good with her." Tears streamed down my face, just another part of the weekly ritual.

"I miss you so fucking much Troye. You said you'd never leave. I don't blame you though. You didn't want to." My voice shook.

"I'm sorry. I won't ever forget you, but you would want me to move on. He proposed to me, and I said yes. I don't think I'll ever stop visiting you, or ever stop crying at night because I miss you. Connor understands though. He knows. You know too."

"I knew I loved you as soon as I saw you."

A/N hai

sorry

don't hate me

I basically wrote this in a car journey whilst listening to The Fault In Our Stars. the idea came to me, so I wrote it.

I cried when I proofread it, is that normal?

special thanks to @xSillyTilly for the amazing cover, @ThatOneElson for the also amazing cover, and @ashpea_14, @Arock37, @bandsandyoutubersk and @troylerplz for putting up with me dying today!

ENJOY <3