Through the Years

Chapter 6

**** WARNING! These next few chapters will have some self harm in the story at the end, if you do not feel comfortable in reading it do not worry, you will still be able to understand the story line just miss the part when he goes to the present. *** WARNING

Louis took in a deep breath and once again sat down in front of his children to tell them his story.

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Louis and Harry looked up at Zayn, and both parted away from each other. They swam to the edge of the pool and climbed out, put on their clothes awkwardly and walked over to Zayn.

"It's not what it looks like." Harry muttered.

"I saw two of my best friends kissing? What does that look like to you?"

"Oh, then it's exactly what it looks like. You can't tell anyone what you saw Zayn." Harry replied.

"Why can't I tell anyone? People deserve to know, our fans, our family, Liam and Niall."

"No, you can't tell anyone don't you understand that. we cannot tell anyone, promise us you won't tell anyone?" Louis begged.

"Why can't I tell anyone?" Zayn questioned.

"Can you just imagine if people knew? We would be emotionally publicised, everyone would know the truth that we were dating, that we were in love with each other. IT would be all over the news and the hate won't stop. People would constantly ask us questions, we wouldn't be the five best friends anymore, every interview we have will just be about me and Harry. The world would finally stop caring about One Direction and our whole world would come crashing down, don't you realise that? Do you really think people would let us live peacefully? No one can know!"

"Okay, I won't tell anyone, but I think Niall and Liam have the right to know."

"They will know eventually, I'm sure everyone will know but we've just started out, we're still figuring things out between us. We talked about telling the three of you, we really did, we just didn't know how."

"Okay, I'm not happy about keeping this a secret but if you promise you'll tell them soon that's okay and as long as you're both happy." Zayn said, he stood there awkwardly for a second, he then picked up his torch and left Harry and Louis alone.

Louis and Harry stood there staring at each other for a moment. Louis eyes widened in fear for a moment he looked at Harry.

"What if Zayn tells people?" Louis whispered.

"He's our best friend Lou, he wouldn't do that to us. he just wouldn't." Harry said.

They arrived back at the room a few moments later and saw that Zayn was asleep again along with the others, Liam and Niall were now on the floor and Zayn was on the single bed. Leaving Louis and Harry to have the double bed.

"Goodnight Louis." Harry whispered pulling the duvet cover up and snuggling into bed.

"Goodnight Harry." Louis said kissing Harry on the forehead.

It was early morning and the birds started chirping and the sun shone through the thin curtains. The five boys woke up simultaneously. They all sat there in silent for a moment adjusting to the light and trying to wake themselves up.

"I got a headache." Niall moaned.

"And how do your heads feel Harry and Louis, after the night you had wow you must be tired?" Zayn said smirking.

"Shut up Zayn!" Louis said through gritted teeth.

"What kind of night did they have? We all had the same night didn't we?" Liam questioned.

"Oh yes, they just went on an adventure together, that's all no big deal." Zayn said.

A few moments later Niall and Liam went to their own room to get changed, Zayn lingered back for a few moments. he looked at Harry and Louis and smiled.

"I'm not going to say anything, you don't have to jump every time I open my mouth. It's just if you're still together by next year and haven't told Liam and Niall. I will!" Zayn threatened walking off.

That was just the start of how the boys were slowly drifting apart, it was only just the beginning of their career. But it seemed as though things were coming to an end and that scared Louis he didn't want to be the reason why the band broke up. He didn't want to have to tell anyone that he was dating his best friend, he didn't want to have to explain himself constantly.

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Louis looked at his two children an noticed they were both asleep, he kissed them on the forehead and said goodnight.

He then walked towards his bathroom, closed the door behind him and looked in the mirror. He was tired, his beautiful blue eyes were now dull grey and his hair was matted, everything about the Louis people once loved and knew was gone, he wasn't Louis Tomlinson anymore he was a nobody. He opened the cabinet above the sink and took out a razor blade.

His world had come crashing down, he had lost everyone he cared for, he had lost fame and fortune. Everything he once loved was now gone, he was lost and alone and he just wanted to feel something. Louis looked at the blade and sighed with his eyes closed he placed it on his pale white skin, he took in a deep breath.

There was a silver blade against Louis wrist andtears falling down to his lips. The blood crimson red, these were words he couldnot explain. A way to hide his pain as Louis pressed deeper and deeper, not caringabout the consequences. Just because he was smiling doesn't mean He's happy. Louis was just tired of living but scared of dying. Once he finished with the blade he let out a deep breath and traced his fingers along his wrist, smudging the bloodacross his wrist smiling at himself. Louis couldn't explain but the feeling he feltafter carving his wrist and the way the blade felt was mesmerising, the intensepain he got afterwards was soothing and the way the cut formed perfectly on his skin was truly beautiful. After all watching the blood trickle down onto thefloor was dazzling.

Everything seemed to fit together now, the blade was his friend. Although he had only cut once he knew that the razor blade wouldn't tell anyone his secrets, the razor blade wouldn't call him names or hate on him. It was there when he needed it and he really needed a friend right now.