I Love You More Than I Can Ever Scream

I Love You More Than I Can Ever Scream (Andy Biersack X Reader, One Shot)

A/N:

Published December 2014

Edited June 2016 

I actually wanted to re-do this, because I thought it was cute lel. 

Requested by a friend. love you, and miss you, darling.  Rest In Paradise. <3 

-Reader P.O.V- 

A small,simple room cluttered with clothes and makeup, dark and dingy. It was the backstage to a concert house, and I had the lucky honor of being able to sit back here in boredom, awaiting my boyfriend. The lead singer of the American Rock band Black Veil Brides. Yes, it was strange to travel with him and his fellow brothers everywhere on tour, but I never liked the idea of being away from him for that long. Tours lasted about a year. Oh and how fun it was to sit backstage, listening to the muffled music blaring outside the room. Put back here because I would "ruin the show" as security put it. I was always nervous on these tours, it was just something I really couldn't cope with. The traveling, the people, the chaos that could go on. But, tonight, tonight was a special kind of trainwreck. Andy said he was finally going to reveal our relationship to the fans, and that had my head spinning for hours, my stomach swelling up at the thought of, well, the fans disapproving and ruining my life forever. I couldn't help but think, and think of just how horrible it would be to see Andy become disappointed like that. I slouch in the couch, and sigh, just hoping that this night could end, if it could just not happen. That would be great. Sitting here, mindlessly thinking, I heard the music come to an abrupt end, then I hear someone walk in, I glance over to notice Andy. Andy and all his perfection. He smiled, as he leaned up against the wall and crossed his arms, looking down at me, just a plain, and simply cute expression across his face. 

"Baby Bat..." he cooed.  his little nickname was such a dorky one. 'Baby Bat' because, 'he loved me as much as Batman' 

"Yeah..?" I ask, yes, I knew that face and how he made it because he was pleased with something. 

"You look nervous." he says, his hand reached up to push small strands of ebony hair out of his face. "But, I'm not nervous." I reply, hoping confidence would help, but my voice tried so hard to speak with courage that it managed to seem fake. 

"It's cute.." he replied with such a soft, easy and deep voice. 

"No it's not." 

Hoping I could waste time back here, arguing about pointless things with him, I try to make excuses to stay longer. But, his mind is only focused on wanting to get out there and tell the news. 

 "C'mon Baby Bat.. let's go." He offered his hand, I immediately hesitate, not because of Andy, but because of the fact that I was about to walk onto a stage in front of thousands of fans. Not fans of me. But Andy. They don't even know me, and to think the first impression I'm going to make, is that I'm Andy's strange girlfriend who is extremely awkward. I take his hand and walk towards the exit, and oh the terrible thoughts came storming in.  I stop dead in my tracks and look down, shut my eyes for a mere second then look back up,  to find Andy staring at me with his electric blue eyes "What's wrong Baby?" He asked in his, deep and comforting voice. Its only a matter of time before I'm forced to tell him all of my feelings, because I know he hated seeing me sad.  "I am actually pretty nervous.. I mean, geez, they worship you, and I'm just some girl in college who hasnt actually done great with her life, they might all hate me.. They might think I'm just.. Not right for you.. there's so much that can go wrong.. So many people might disapprove.. what if it's best we just leave in between the band? So know one has to worry..and.. and..."I feel his arm wrap around my waist, as I feel him pull my body towards his, his lips gently press up against mine as I'm forced to stop wasting my breath, he kisses me, and I whimper, God how stupid. He stops, takes a small gasp and looks me straight in the eye,  "Babe.. they can say whatever they want, but I will always love you.. I dont care if you're not this big time killer rockstar, I don't care that you're just in college, I don't care about any of that stuff. You're mine, I fell in love with you because I think you're perfect. The whole world can be against us and I'll conquer it with one hand, as long as the other is holding your's. I've got you, everything else is just life. I love you, Baby Bat..they should too.." as I look up at him a smile forms onto my face, probably from ear to ear. he was prefect in every way. "You know just what to say to make me feel better.." 

I tell him, 

"Yeah?" 

"You also know how make everything feel so damn cheesy.."

I reply with a slight giggle, 

"You know how to make me feel stupid, Baby Bat." 

He chuckles, hugs me and kisses my neck, 

"I love you.. more than I can ever scream."

I feel as if my heart were trying to rip out of my throat, and I can't help but smile even more, 

"I... I love you too, Andy." 

I walked out on to the stage with him, the lights dimmed and the crowd began to cheer. As the lights switched back on I saw the crowd and my heart began to race. My legs weakened, and something told me to head right back stage, but Andy held my hand, and would not let go. "Before we get started I've got some news. and if you want to kill the vibe in here, I suggest you leave because i'm pretty damn sure we're all having a good time..also.."Andy pauses, and takes a sigh revealing just how nervous he is too ".. I want to announce.. that this.. is my new girlfriend, [Y/N]!" The crowd roared, CC made this sound with the drums, similar to a drum roll, and I could hear whistling coming from everywhere, it was such a relief, knowing I was all worked up over nothing, and knowing I had Andy to guide me through the tough parts. I did  hear a few boos as well. "I love her with all my heart.. She means a lot to me.. And, honestly I don't know where I would be without her, she's always there for me when I need it most.. Always picks me up when I fall.. My little Baby Bat.. and if you disapprove you can go fuck yourself.." he said in his usual deep voice. The crowd, The guys and I myself all laughed. That simple little speech, was just beautiful. It meant so much. And the fact that he said it with such sincerity. It made my night. He smiled at the crowd, then turns to look at me, pulls me closer, to where He can easily kiss me, which he does, as he holds my waist, and plants a gentle loving kiss on my lips. It lasted for a while, I couldn't tell, but I knew whatever that feeling was, it was one of the best.  I could hear the crowd awe, and simply just be happy for us. Which was better than I'd expected. 

-Andy's P.O.V.-

I have to admit. It was nerve racking, the fact of announcing the news to millions of fans who never even knew of her existence. She was nervous, I could tell just the way she was being shy, and jumpy. I wanted to make her feel better, but She was just so worked up on pleasing the fans. But, after I kisses her, and held her, I finally got to see her smile. That smile, made me feel confidence, and I knew I could walk out on that stage without fear, if she was by my side. And as we did so, I felt my heart race, and I couldn't let go of her hand, wanting her beside me. To finally tell the news.. To finally let the world know I love her, felt more amazing than it seems. A lot of people were happy for us and she was happy, that's all I wanted. To see her smile again. It was beyond amazing. 

We finally got around to doing the music, lasting two hours, we closed up with Rebel Love Song, just for her. Seeing her smile. I love her more than I can ever scream.